*blush*
You know I have always been the kind of person since I remember, that never belived that anyone could ever fall in love. Or even that I am not the type of person who could ever fall in love. But then here I am in love with Graham. I sit here and ask myself what the hell happened. I tottally went against what I belived in, and fell in love...WITH A BOY!!!! (for awhile I started to question my sexuality but thats a whole nother story. not many people know about that one but I guess they do now). hmmmmm where was I....Ahh yes, The funny thing is that me and Graham weren't always the best of friends, until maybe the end of freshman year, maybe the middle of sophmore year, I dunno, I couldn't stand him most of the time and he got on my nerves all the time, not to mention he was on my bus, not to mention he was in four of my classes, he works with me and lives right down the street from me. Now back in 10th grade this is what I called a "Graham Overload". Half the time I wished he wasn't always around, until I got to 11th grade now he's not in my lunch, or in any of my classes, he goes out on the job every day during shop, and He drives now so he doesn't take the bus... So when I used to wish he wasn't always around, now I wish he's was. I hate not seeing him, even if he is just a classroom away. I promised myself I wouldn't fall head over heals for anyone, and that I know that highschool relationships would never last. But something tells me that this relationship will last past highschool. It's hard to let anything come in between us. I mean we have the same friends, were so alike it's creepy. Not to mention the "wendys" hehheh... Theres nothing like a good chicken sandwhich... lol... anyway, I know most of the people who read this know what I'm talking about, so they all probably had the same reaction... "oh....my....god..." *attemps to gouge eyes out* Sorry guys... Anywho, I love Graham more then anything, and I never thought I'd feel this way about anyone, at least not in highschool. My mom used to tell me when I'd rant on to her how I loved a boy in elementary school, that I didn't know what love is. and she would tell me that she ddin't know what it was until she was 18. Well I feel that if you truely love someone, you would know.because its a differnt kind of feeling. It's hard to explain but its something that no one else can give you. My mom claims that she found love when she was 18, but true love never fails, if she was truely in love then I would still have my real dad around. You can't say you truely love someone then get bored with them and dump them for someone knew. It doesn't work like that. If you truely love someone then you would do anything that you could possibly do to make your relationship work. thats why I get so touchy when people say that they love someone so much, but then they cheat on there boyfriends,or have more then one boyfriend, and can't decide who thy love more. I have never been truely in love with anyone until I met Graham. And I know it's love because, I'm so much happier now, all the things that I hated Before I am slowly starting to like. for instance, I hate pink but I almost bought a pink shirt the other day, I hate children but lately I've been really nice to them, I even complimented a lady on how cute her child was. Then I started to think how one day in the future I wanted to have a family. When people make out on tv I used to cringe and be like "ewww thats so gross" but now I just smile and think of me and Graham together. Nothing could ever tear us apart, because i love him too much. Nobody could ever change that... Well thats all for now... Bye kiddies