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im making dinner for travis tonite...the funny thing is...i dont want to....i dont even want to see him. i dont know why. i just dont care right now ya know? normally i would be giddy and thrilled and be like oh yay yay yay travis travis travis but right now its like....i've got bigger fish to fry. today is an odd day ya know? just an odd odd day. i dont know what the hell i want anymore. i dont know who i am. i did coke last nite courteney. please dont hate me for being a hypocrit....it was just there. and i wanted to, i loved it. i want more. i want that. thats what i want...you are right im just a fucking drug addict.