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I am so lucky to have the friends that I do.
i dont know what I would do without sarah, jessica and taryn.
all three of them are so different.
They have traits about them i wouldnt change for the world.
im so excited for winter to come.
i think winter is my favorite season.
it has my favorite holidays and memories.
im really hoping for a good winter.
im being a nurse for halloween.
how lame. i know.
im being something i told myself not to be...
"dont be slutty" "be something weird"
well... a sloth didnt work out soo... i guess a nurse was the next best thing?
whatever dude. its cool
i think i want to take like jewelry making classes.
i need to get involved with something, i think i have too much spare time.
or maybe helping out at a animal shelter with cats. that would be fun, but i think i would get too attached to all of the cats.
im babysitting quentin on friday
so that should be fun.
from the like 16 months hes lived with me.. ive never changed his diaper. soo i dont know what im gonna do friday! haha
im really excited to go to the halloween party,
jessica invited me and we are going to go her friends from works house cody and todd. Cody is way cute and he thinks i am too! haha, how 6th grade. i think it should be fun.
Its something i need! I want to feel some type of like attention from the male spectrum.
but who knows, we are both extremely shy, so i bet we will say like 3 words to each other. haha, maybe its better that way?
i hope when im older i have a marriage like my mom and dad.
they have never cheated on each other or abused one another.
they are on the same page about issues with like rules and stuff.
they have really set a good example on how a family should be. atleast to me. i think im really lucky.
i look at jessica situation and it makes me honestly upset. to tears.
she deserves more than her dad can offer.
yeah her dads cool and stuff
im just worried that she doesnt know shes better than what she wants to beileve.
i do not understand some people,
how can someone be so rude to another person and feel no like sorrow or be sorry?
i like to believe in karma and shit.
but i dont know anymore,
im not sure what i believe at all.
wishful thinking?? fuck that
that just sets you up for disappointment
being optimist gets me no where.
being hopeful is the biggest waste of energy
im getting to the point where i dont know what im chasing anymore.
is it the thought of something that isnt there and will never be?
im forgetting what im missing. maybe its better that way.
maybe its better to forget everything and move on.
this isnt worth it anymore.
the tears, the stress, the headaches, the long drives, the sleepless nights.
its just hard to understand how you can be happy with yourself knowing you are hurting someone so bad.
it seems really heartless.
but maybe theres more to it than that.
i probably have it wrong. right?
i dont know what I would do without sarah, jessica and taryn.
all three of them are so different.
They have traits about them i wouldnt change for the world.
im so excited for winter to come.
i think winter is my favorite season.
it has my favorite holidays and memories.
im really hoping for a good winter.
im being a nurse for halloween.
how lame. i know.
im being something i told myself not to be...
"dont be slutty" "be something weird"
well... a sloth didnt work out soo... i guess a nurse was the next best thing?
whatever dude. its cool
i think i want to take like jewelry making classes.
i need to get involved with something, i think i have too much spare time.
or maybe helping out at a animal shelter with cats. that would be fun, but i think i would get too attached to all of the cats.
im babysitting quentin on friday
so that should be fun.
from the like 16 months hes lived with me.. ive never changed his diaper. soo i dont know what im gonna do friday! haha
im really excited to go to the halloween party,
jessica invited me and we are going to go her friends from works house cody and todd. Cody is way cute and he thinks i am too! haha, how 6th grade. i think it should be fun.
Its something i need! I want to feel some type of like attention from the male spectrum.
but who knows, we are both extremely shy, so i bet we will say like 3 words to each other. haha, maybe its better that way?
i hope when im older i have a marriage like my mom and dad.
they have never cheated on each other or abused one another.
they are on the same page about issues with like rules and stuff.
they have really set a good example on how a family should be. atleast to me. i think im really lucky.
i look at jessica situation and it makes me honestly upset. to tears.
she deserves more than her dad can offer.
yeah her dads cool and stuff
im just worried that she doesnt know shes better than what she wants to beileve.
i do not understand some people,
how can someone be so rude to another person and feel no like sorrow or be sorry?
i like to believe in karma and shit.
but i dont know anymore,
im not sure what i believe at all.
wishful thinking?? fuck that
that just sets you up for disappointment
being optimist gets me no where.
being hopeful is the biggest waste of energy
im getting to the point where i dont know what im chasing anymore.
is it the thought of something that isnt there and will never be?
im forgetting what im missing. maybe its better that way.
maybe its better to forget everything and move on.
this isnt worth it anymore.
the tears, the stress, the headaches, the long drives, the sleepless nights.
its just hard to understand how you can be happy with yourself knowing you are hurting someone so bad.
it seems really heartless.
but maybe theres more to it than that.
i probably have it wrong. right?