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my worst nightmare came true tonight...........graduation.
I am super excited and happy for everyone but i cant help but be upset at the fact they are all going to college and i am stuck with another year of high school. Tonight was filled with so many emotions it was ridiculous. My moods changed every second. I was crying one minute, smiling the next, pissed the next, happy the next minute. Am I going insane? I wasnt even graduating!!
I must say, seeing Tj graduate was really sad. It was like seeing my brother gradute. I was so proud and happy of him! I really dont want him to be out of high school. I dont know why, I think i am scared of him going to college and becoming like a huge ass or something. not that he isnt an ass now, but a bigger one. I guess i am scared of what i dont know. I dont know what its like to have your best friend go to college. even though he is going to MCC and not living in dorms and shit, its going to be different. but i guess thats cool. and even if it wasnt cool, not much i can do about it!! I dont know... i dont want tj to grow up! I dont want any of those boys to grow up and go to college!! I want little bleached tipped hair tj back. I miss him.
Ahhh... congratulations Adam, Tj, Jason, Ty, Matt and Ellis!! I love all of you.