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and i cant stop writting. its the only thing i can do to stay busy, but even so it doesnt take my mind off of anything. its all i can manage to think about. and man do i try not to, but its impossible. its like if im not thinking about it, im not alive. and i know that it isnt the best thing to be thinking about, but hey, its the only thing that seems to keep me going. how is it that i was ok yesterday, and then today everything just...fell apart? what happened? i dont know...i havent slept in 2 days... but ill be okay, right?