hows it goin everyone
im in a good mood now no longer irritated i have been a little aggravated for the past few days but now i have just found a reason not to be and i wont tell i promise i cant help but wonder though am i who i am i cant help but ask am i me in such a sarcastic manner i had a good dream last night it was a little disturbing but it wasnt a bad one atleast for the first time in a while i have had a good one i wonder what i am goin to do with myself today of course that is the question everyday for me it seems like i cant help it i really can but i just have to find out how
i will
i must
i promise
not yet have i broken a promise to myself
i will succeed
this is final i will
or will i i dont understand
do i have a prupose
do i live that of someone who lives and just dies and is slowly forgotten
i would not mind if this were true
curiousity kills me it has broken me i will do anything to subside curiousity
it can control me it has in the past
curiousity
drove me to love
love as it is what it is i cant help but wonder
was it curiousity or love i dont know anymore but it can hurt worse than anything
my love i think it may just be curiousity i think i would know though
or do i know and just not want to admit it
can i finally
no
i cant i refuse to
she says she loves me
and i nonhesitantly answer
with the same affection
am i playing with her emotions or is she playing with mine this is the end
of what i know but its is mine
mine to know
to know how i fucked it up
she was innocent and i turned her into a person
dreaded by many
the conversion
is it or is it not avoidable
i cant comprehend it anymore
but at the same time i am the one who created it
it is me and me alone
atleast after
after what the conversion
no the trasmutation
of mine and her being alike
i dontknow what im writing
these are my feeling and
they lead to the point of not destruction but
creation is that what you want to hear
i am not your pawn
but my own i control myself
but my emotions control me
i will
i must
i promise
not yet have i broken a promise to myself
i will succeed
this is final i will
or will i i dont understand
do i have a prupose
do i live that of someone who lives and just dies and is slowly forgotten
i would not mind if this were true
curiousity kills me it has broken me i will do anything to subside curiousity
it can control me it has in the past
curiousity
drove me to love
love as it is what it is i cant help but wonder
was it curiousity or love i dont know anymore but it can hurt worse than anything
my love i think it may just be curiousity i think i would know though
or do i know and just not want to admit it
can i finally
no
i cant i refuse to
she says she loves me
and i nonhesitantly answer
with the same affection
am i playing with her emotions or is she playing with mine this is the end
of what i know but its is mine
mine to know
to know how i fucked it up
she was innocent and i turned her into a person
dreaded by many
the conversion
is it or is it not avoidable
i cant comprehend it anymore
but at the same time i am the one who created it
it is me and me alone
atleast after
after what the conversion
no the trasmutation
of mine and her being alike
i dontknow what im writing
these are my feeling and
they lead to the point of not destruction but
creation is that what you want to hear
i am not your pawn
but my own i control myself
but my emotions control me