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i went into a deep state of depression last night. i've never seen myself like that before. it was because everything finally hit me. im surprised i snapped out of it. it was really weird. but im back now. im currently in my bathing suit in the middle of winter because i used this sunless tanner. it says it takes like 2-3 hours. my uncle was supposed to come fix my car today but he got drunk instead. it seems like im never going to be able to leave. i even prayed last night. i never pray. im becoming that desperate. ahh