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[its_me_jen]

it feels weird to know that i'm here, living my life on the completely opposite side of the world than all my friends are now living theirs. before with everyone spread out, at school and in other countries, it was easy to forget about the fact that life was going on without me because everyone was doing such different things. now everyone's going home and doing things, and it's summer, and i can't help but feel like i'm missing out. but i also don't want to leave here. a month and half left and i really don't want the end to come. but i love summer, and it's our last summer before we graduate. i guess it wouldn't be the same anyways, with samantha living in boston, it wont be like every other summer. and i'm sure when i get home i'll end up wanting to be back here, so i should stop. i'm being selfish though and i don't want people having fun without me.
i guess it's better to want to be in 2 places at once than to not want to be where you are at all.