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I have the worst muse ever.
I've been writing lately.
so here it is.
just getting it out there.
Spider.
One loose end tied up
and another ripped wide open.
The nature of which
I can't seem to grasp or handle.
My stomach is sick and shaking
in part because of the booze
and in part because of you.
It simply wouldn't work.
It simply won't work.
Those phrases don't deter the feeling.
My life is a spider web
with loose ends draped
in every corner of the universe.
Loose ends that only lead to hurt and injury
like the spider falling to her death.
loose ends with be the death of me.
Siren.
I always open up like this
an unfortunate and terrible things to miss.
The purging of it all on paper
after the purging of it all in tears.
A closed door stares me down in joy
and flings itself wide open on the days of discontent.
The most ragged and disgusting muse
who skips in the face of torment
and gleefully screams in death.
An unfortunate and terrible thing to miss.
A siren's dying kiss.
Cavities.
Please say all the sugary and sweet things you've got to say.
We both know damn well that cavities don't suit me
just as groveling doesn't suit you.
Pick yourself up off the ground
and provide me with something real.
Something I can hold in my hands and call my own.
Like the kitty you always want
and never got at any birthday.
At least then I could pretend.
A make believe kitty is nothing like a make believe relationship.
Frozen Tundra.
An empty dark cave to rest your weary head in.
There's nothing to get but plundering the likes of it,
and nothing to gain by huddling in her to save face from the world.
Nowhere firm to start a fire to keep you warm as the world freezes before your eyes
Nowhere safe to forgo frostbite.
All you're left with is the sting from before.
The frost bite still deeply embedded underneath your skin.
Let the goose bumps run up your spin again.
Breath in the frozen air as it savagely tears through your lungs.
There's nothing to gain by hiding here.
Nothing good to get by freezing in this frozen tundra.
just a few to get me going.
I need to go to bed though.
work early in the a.m.
goodnight.