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Do you know what its like to lie in bed at night, the lights turned out and just lie there and think to yourself, How luck you are to have someone that loves you more than anything in the world? Do you wonder if who you are is good enough for them? Do you wonder why you lie in bed every single ngiht alone without anyone except for whats in your head? Do you ever wake up in the middle of the night and just cry for no apparent reason? Do you wake up every morning and wonder if you're perfect enough for them? I do lay in bed every night lights out, pure silence and thank God that i have him in my life. I also pray that i will never lose him because he is my rock he keeps me whole. Every second of the day i wonder if i am good enough, I wonder if i need to be better if i need to try more to be that one person. When i lay alone at night, I wish I had him by myside to hold me and let me know that everything will be okay will hold me forever and never let go. I wake up more and more thses past few weeks and i cry myself back to sleep becasue i could have done better for her i could have tried harder to see her. I could have been better. Yes, i do wake up every moring and wonder if i am perfect enough for him i wonder if i could always do better...
Yes i wrote this...
Yes i wrote this...