Fuck all of you.
I just realized whats wrong with me, why I'm so weird when it comes to relationships. The first guy I thought I loved, even though I had never met him and he lived across the country. Left for almost a year, no e-mail...nothing. Never even tried. I stayed there and hoped he would still love me back when we got back into contact. Well when we did I found out he didn't, he had given up. Quit. After so many months of beating myself up over it and waiting, he wasn't even there. Now I'm scared to death of being forgotten about, being left behind. I ruin relationships because I worry and assume that people don't care about me, and sooner or later they give up. They stop trying to convince me that they do, and they just leave. I'm scared that I'm going to do this to a great guy. I want things to happen so badly that I just fuck it all up.
Other news:
I bought a Nintendo Entertainment System, anyone want to come over and play?
Painted a wall in my room; Deeply Red.
Dying my hair brown tomorrow.
Painting more random furniture neon colors.
Tired of being forgotten, if you want to hang out make some fucking room in your busy fucking life for me. I'm really getting tired of caring and stressing over it. It's total bullshit that you do this. I've tried to make plans but whatever.
Other news:
I bought a Nintendo Entertainment System, anyone want to come over and play?
Painted a wall in my room; Deeply Red.
Dying my hair brown tomorrow.
Painting more random furniture neon colors.
Tired of being forgotten, if you want to hang out make some fucking room in your busy fucking life for me. I'm really getting tired of caring and stressing over it. It's total bullshit that you do this. I've tried to make plans but whatever.