Time When I Recollect Memories
Eunhyuk POV
"Nee,listener! Now our Eunhyuk will sing the song 'The Time of Walking on Remembrance' !"
Sukira tonight had a different aura with another night.
"As you already knew that Eunhyuk would be temporary replaced here due to his upcoming activity in Taiwan! so this is would be a good-bye-song for you all."
Leeteuk hyung's voice also sounds different, there is a lil bit of sadeness added here.
"Everyone, Please enjoy it!"
I took a deep sigh before the music started to play. Nervous? hell yeah. But I'd prepared myself for this. I can do it! You can do it, Hyuk!
Then, i let my voice come out following the rythem.
I still hear your voice
I still miss your hands
Today again I live within your traces
'5 years, huh? it've been five years since i became a DJ here'
I'm singing, and letting my memories coming trough my mind.
I still see you
I still feel your warmth
Today again I live within the time spent with you
2006
This is my first time. My first time entering KBS's building without all of Super Junior's member. My first night as the Radio Dj of a new program they called Sukira, Super Junior's Kiss the Radio, Super Junior's, ours.
Well, only both of us as the main host though, Leeteuk hyung and I. Being a newbie i am, i felt frightened affected my body. My step faltered, sweat ran madly in my skin. I need to calm down myself.
"I- I'm nervous, hyung." Leeteuk hyung stopped his walk and turned to me . I waited for him to say something which it could calm me down, like "Don't worry, we can do it" or "Hey,it's easy, and we are together."
"Hyuk," he said it, "I'm afraid too!"
'heyy?'
"Oh Shissus! Hyuk, this is our first program that we do without our full team,right? Oh! i'm so worried about their, listener's reaction!"
'Hyung, you shouldn't said that! I feel more nervous here!'
"But,hyuk, at least, we are together, right?" he said it, and reached out his hand to mine and dragged me to the studio that had been prepared for us.
"Don't stop your step just because a feeling of hesitation, Hyuk. We can't stop here." He said it ,while dragging me, without looking at me. Coz his eyes was focused to our future ahead.
In some stranger who passes by
In leaves that fall and dance in the wind
In the evening wind that thouches my cheek
You are in everything I see, hear, and feel
2010
He was broken.
Here he was, sitting on the couch, waiting for his schedule time to come, blankly, lifeless.
Heebum taking a nap beside him.
Just yesterday, his best friend, his ultimate buddy, Hankyung hyung was gone. Hankyung hyung went to look for a happiness that he couldn't find here.
"Heechul hyung," I called his name, hope that he aware of my arrival.
"Hyukjae... Why did he leave m-... why did he leave us?" he said it blankly, and i knew that he just a person that doesn't need a courtesy.
"Maybe..He is trying to found his happiness."
"..Can not we give it to him? is he searching for a better happiness?"
"Happiness is happiness,hyung. Can't be better, can't be worse."
He was broken. And i just make it worse.
"Hyung, we need you." I said it, I told him what I was feared since the departure of Hankyung hyung. That he will leave us too, following Hankyung hyung's step.
"Without you, we can't survive."
He stiffen.
Silent a minute before he nodded.
"I wouldn't leave you all."
Relief flowed through my body.
"As long as your theory about that happiness is true, i'll try to rebuild it here, within you, without him."
A single tears drop falling without hesitation.
Yeah, how about you?
Do you feel the same way?
How about you?
I still feel you
2009
Hankyung hyung is a real hyung for me. Yeah i know, i have Leeteuk hyung, Heechul hyung, Yesung hyung, Kangin hyung, Shindong hyung, and Sungmin Hyung, but hey~ , almost all of those hyung doesn't behave like a hyung should be. Besides, i had became a veryyy good friend with them. So because of his gentleness, there is only Hankyung hyung for me.
"Eunhyuk-ah! You are perfect! You did well! I love You!" You shouted from the balcony that is far away from where i stood.
Everyone claped their hands. Thay shouted their comment about your comment about me. I only gave my two thumbs up to you, even though i felt really happy inside. You just complained about Heechul hyung bad behavior yet you praise me that much. Yeah,even though after that you said, "Heechul-ah, it's okay. I love you."
Everyone laughed, claped, i just can't forget that moment easily.
====
"And the winner is...,"
'arrgh, just said it already!'
"SUPER JUNIOR!"
Thats it. I cried. We were on the stage and I cried. Many people give us a congratulations words and hugs. I cried, and you wiped that tears.
"You are really a crybaby."
Behind your back i can saw Heechul hyung taken care of Donghae, well, i'm not the only one. "It's not possible to not cry at this moment, hyung."
"Yeah, you are right." Tears in your eyes, hyung. I can see it.
But at that time, i thought it was a tears of happiness.
I really didn't expected that it would be the last time you wiped my tears. Didn't thought that it will be our last time standing together on the same stage.
I still feel you
Like this, even at the moment when I'm singing this song
I..
I see you
2008
"Hyukjae! I want to have a pet!"
I just reached my room's door when he suddenly appeared behind my back with his strange aura. I shuddered thanks to his assassin like aura.
"W-why so suddenly ,hyung?"
"I'm jealous with Heechul's cat! I don't want to be lonely, I should get a pet too!"
Before i reply him something he was already gone, back to wherever his place before.
'Really, my ABnormal hyung.' I just could shake my head.
The day after, in the living room of our dorm, there is a lil land turtle...
'what a surprise!'
"Hyung, why turtle?" I can't believe it. He doesn't want to be lonely yet he bhought a land turtle which it costed 30.000 won?!
"Something wrong with Ddangkoma?"
'Good, so it's name is Little Chip Potato'
"You can't colored your day with a silent, lack of movement land turtle,hyung."
"I don't need him to colored my days," he said that, like its a mother of fact, "It's your duty, Hyukjae."
Tomorrow again I will see you
Tomorrow again I will hear you
Tomorrow again everything will be the same
2010
"I'll join the army."
That day was a rare day for us, because of our tight schedule we couldn't manage a time to get together all this time, thats why this time should be a special time, if only Kangin hyung didn't told us the news.
We were in our dinning room,rounding our dinning table.
"It's just about time.."
We kept silent.
"I'll go at July 5th."
"You want to run away?" Leeteuk hyung angrily said it. I still kept silent. Why now...why after Hankyung left.." I could felt the vibrant in Leeteuk hyung's voice. You can see his body trembling.
"Those news.. they wouldn't stop haunting us. Especially after that accident."
I could hear other sobs, it coming from Ryeowook.
Kangin hyung continued his words, "I will leave for Super Junior's sake."
'HOW COULD YOU THINK WE WOULD BE OKAY WITHOUT YOU, HYUNG?!!'
I want to remove that day from my memories, badly.
On the empty chair left by the road
Inside the glass of water that I unconsciously picked up
In the mirror when I look to see myself
In the music that gently that falls and lands in my ears, you are there
2005
"Should i leave this group?"
It was when our debut days. "All of you are talented, cool, and good looking man. Look at me, i'm a fatty, and my ability is nothing. I will ruine the image." Shindong hyung told me his problem.
"Your ability is NOTHING?? What are you,hyung? A nutz?" Yes, i know that he is my hyung and i must respect him, but he is my bestfriend at the same time. And as my best friend he just said something stupid.
"Look at the way you dance! it's great! We can be the dance lead together!"
"But you are handsome! and oh god, you can't be the dance lead, you should be the dance king! Beat that East Sea boy and Chinese man."
"I will!" And i'm serious about that, i couldn't let myself beaten on the dance thing.
"And you better stay here with us,hyung."
"Am I good enough for you guys?"
"You are our multi talent guy, hyung. Good is an underestimating word." I didn't lied.
"Don't worry, even if it wasn't about singing and dancing, we can be the gag man together!" I smiled my gummy smile, I knew ourself and our dorkness. Gag man would be good.
What should i do?
You must have erased me
What should i do? we..
This song would be ended soon.
After this day, Yesung hyung will replace my position. Just temporaly, but still, sadness coming trough my mind. But i'm sure Yesung hyung would be great, as long as he doesn't bring his Ddangkoma as a talk partner (laugh),
I'll miss this day.
What should i do?
Longing for you I open window and welcome memories about you
Again and again my eyes become red because of tears
I took a glance to Leeteuk hyung. Our eyes met. He looked at me during all this time. With those eyes, soft and caring.
My senior, my leader, my best friend, my father, my big brother.
I'll miss this day
What should i do ?
Longing for you I open window and welcome memories about you
That keeps on breaking my heart
I'll miss you all.
What should i do?
I still feel you
Part 1- FINfish
A.N. haaaang T___T
ah, i have heard Hyukie's song cover. Hmmf, makes me want write this fic,hahahahhahaha!
this video >> http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=207510692596566
I hope his SjM activity going well^^
All SuJu member too! Hwaiting!
maybe you can recognize some moment in this fic? the story based on their video, reality show, fancam, etc, just added my own idea,hahahaha.
Just that, thanks for reading^^
"Nee,listener! Now our Eunhyuk will sing the song 'The Time of Walking on Remembrance' !"
Sukira tonight had a different aura with another night.
"As you already knew that Eunhyuk would be temporary replaced here due to his upcoming activity in Taiwan! so this is would be a good-bye-song for you all."
Leeteuk hyung's voice also sounds different, there is a lil bit of sadeness added here.
"Everyone, Please enjoy it!"
I took a deep sigh before the music started to play. Nervous? hell yeah. But I'd prepared myself for this. I can do it! You can do it, Hyuk!
Then, i let my voice come out following the rythem.
I still hear your voice
I still miss your hands
Today again I live within your traces
'5 years, huh? it've been five years since i became a DJ here'
I'm singing, and letting my memories coming trough my mind.
I still see you
I still feel your warmth
Today again I live within the time spent with you
2006
This is my first time. My first time entering KBS's building without all of Super Junior's member. My first night as the Radio Dj of a new program they called Sukira, Super Junior's Kiss the Radio, Super Junior's, ours.
Well, only both of us as the main host though, Leeteuk hyung and I. Being a newbie i am, i felt frightened affected my body. My step faltered, sweat ran madly in my skin. I need to calm down myself.
"I- I'm nervous, hyung." Leeteuk hyung stopped his walk and turned to me . I waited for him to say something which it could calm me down, like "Don't worry, we can do it" or "Hey,it's easy, and we are together."
"Hyuk," he said it, "I'm afraid too!"
'heyy?'
"Oh Shissus! Hyuk, this is our first program that we do without our full team,right? Oh! i'm so worried about their, listener's reaction!"
'Hyung, you shouldn't said that! I feel more nervous here!'
"But,hyuk, at least, we are together, right?" he said it, and reached out his hand to mine and dragged me to the studio that had been prepared for us.
"Don't stop your step just because a feeling of hesitation, Hyuk. We can't stop here." He said it ,while dragging me, without looking at me. Coz his eyes was focused to our future ahead.
In some stranger who passes by
In leaves that fall and dance in the wind
In the evening wind that thouches my cheek
You are in everything I see, hear, and feel
2010
He was broken.
Here he was, sitting on the couch, waiting for his schedule time to come, blankly, lifeless.
Heebum taking a nap beside him.
Just yesterday, his best friend, his ultimate buddy, Hankyung hyung was gone. Hankyung hyung went to look for a happiness that he couldn't find here.
"Heechul hyung," I called his name, hope that he aware of my arrival.
"Hyukjae... Why did he leave m-... why did he leave us?" he said it blankly, and i knew that he just a person that doesn't need a courtesy.
"Maybe..He is trying to found his happiness."
"..Can not we give it to him? is he searching for a better happiness?"
"Happiness is happiness,hyung. Can't be better, can't be worse."
He was broken. And i just make it worse.
"Hyung, we need you." I said it, I told him what I was feared since the departure of Hankyung hyung. That he will leave us too, following Hankyung hyung's step.
"Without you, we can't survive."
He stiffen.
Silent a minute before he nodded.
"I wouldn't leave you all."
Relief flowed through my body.
"As long as your theory about that happiness is true, i'll try to rebuild it here, within you, without him."
A single tears drop falling without hesitation.
Yeah, how about you?
Do you feel the same way?
How about you?
I still feel you
2009
Hankyung hyung is a real hyung for me. Yeah i know, i have Leeteuk hyung, Heechul hyung, Yesung hyung, Kangin hyung, Shindong hyung, and Sungmin Hyung, but hey~ , almost all of those hyung doesn't behave like a hyung should be. Besides, i had became a veryyy good friend with them. So because of his gentleness, there is only Hankyung hyung for me.
"Eunhyuk-ah! You are perfect! You did well! I love You!" You shouted from the balcony that is far away from where i stood.
Everyone claped their hands. Thay shouted their comment about your comment about me. I only gave my two thumbs up to you, even though i felt really happy inside. You just complained about Heechul hyung bad behavior yet you praise me that much. Yeah,even though after that you said, "Heechul-ah, it's okay. I love you."
Everyone laughed, claped, i just can't forget that moment easily.
====
"And the winner is...,"
'arrgh, just said it already!'
"SUPER JUNIOR!"
Thats it. I cried. We were on the stage and I cried. Many people give us a congratulations words and hugs. I cried, and you wiped that tears.
"You are really a crybaby."
Behind your back i can saw Heechul hyung taken care of Donghae, well, i'm not the only one. "It's not possible to not cry at this moment, hyung."
"Yeah, you are right." Tears in your eyes, hyung. I can see it.
But at that time, i thought it was a tears of happiness.
I really didn't expected that it would be the last time you wiped my tears. Didn't thought that it will be our last time standing together on the same stage.
I still feel you
Like this, even at the moment when I'm singing this song
I..
I see you
2008
"Hyukjae! I want to have a pet!"
I just reached my room's door when he suddenly appeared behind my back with his strange aura. I shuddered thanks to his assassin like aura.
"W-why so suddenly ,hyung?"
"I'm jealous with Heechul's cat! I don't want to be lonely, I should get a pet too!"
Before i reply him something he was already gone, back to wherever his place before.
'Really, my ABnormal hyung.' I just could shake my head.
The day after, in the living room of our dorm, there is a lil land turtle...
'what a surprise!'
"Hyung, why turtle?" I can't believe it. He doesn't want to be lonely yet he bhought a land turtle which it costed 30.000 won?!
"Something wrong with Ddangkoma?"
'Good, so it's name is Little Chip Potato'
"You can't colored your day with a silent, lack of movement land turtle,hyung."
"I don't need him to colored my days," he said that, like its a mother of fact, "It's your duty, Hyukjae."
Tomorrow again I will see you
Tomorrow again I will hear you
Tomorrow again everything will be the same
2010
"I'll join the army."
That day was a rare day for us, because of our tight schedule we couldn't manage a time to get together all this time, thats why this time should be a special time, if only Kangin hyung didn't told us the news.
We were in our dinning room,rounding our dinning table.
"It's just about time.."
We kept silent.
"I'll go at July 5th."
"You want to run away?" Leeteuk hyung angrily said it. I still kept silent. Why now...why after Hankyung left.." I could felt the vibrant in Leeteuk hyung's voice. You can see his body trembling.
"Those news.. they wouldn't stop haunting us. Especially after that accident."
I could hear other sobs, it coming from Ryeowook.
Kangin hyung continued his words, "I will leave for Super Junior's sake."
'HOW COULD YOU THINK WE WOULD BE OKAY WITHOUT YOU, HYUNG?!!'
I want to remove that day from my memories, badly.
On the empty chair left by the road
Inside the glass of water that I unconsciously picked up
In the mirror when I look to see myself
In the music that gently that falls and lands in my ears, you are there
2005
"Should i leave this group?"
It was when our debut days. "All of you are talented, cool, and good looking man. Look at me, i'm a fatty, and my ability is nothing. I will ruine the image." Shindong hyung told me his problem.
"Your ability is NOTHING?? What are you,hyung? A nutz?" Yes, i know that he is my hyung and i must respect him, but he is my bestfriend at the same time. And as my best friend he just said something stupid.
"Look at the way you dance! it's great! We can be the dance lead together!"
"But you are handsome! and oh god, you can't be the dance lead, you should be the dance king! Beat that East Sea boy and Chinese man."
"I will!" And i'm serious about that, i couldn't let myself beaten on the dance thing.
"And you better stay here with us,hyung."
"Am I good enough for you guys?"
"You are our multi talent guy, hyung. Good is an underestimating word." I didn't lied.
"Don't worry, even if it wasn't about singing and dancing, we can be the gag man together!" I smiled my gummy smile, I knew ourself and our dorkness. Gag man would be good.
What should i do?
You must have erased me
What should i do? we..
This song would be ended soon.
After this day, Yesung hyung will replace my position. Just temporaly, but still, sadness coming trough my mind. But i'm sure Yesung hyung would be great, as long as he doesn't bring his Ddangkoma as a talk partner (laugh),
I'll miss this day.
What should i do?
Longing for you I open window and welcome memories about you
Again and again my eyes become red because of tears
I took a glance to Leeteuk hyung. Our eyes met. He looked at me during all this time. With those eyes, soft and caring.
My senior, my leader, my best friend, my father, my big brother.
I'll miss this day
What should i do ?
Longing for you I open window and welcome memories about you
That keeps on breaking my heart
I'll miss you all.
What should i do?
I still feel you
Part 1- FINfish
A.N. haaaang T___T
ah, i have heard Hyukie's song cover. Hmmf, makes me want write this fic,hahahahhahaha!
this video >> http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=207510692596566
I hope his SjM activity going well^^
All SuJu member too! Hwaiting!
maybe you can recognize some moment in this fic? the story based on their video, reality show, fancam, etc, just added my own idea,hahahaha.
Just that, thanks for reading^^