(no subject)
I guess it's just hard to believe that after all the years I spent with you being miserable that you're just instantly happy now. I watched you, a grown woman cry and grovel and be absolutely desperate for years. I spent years listening to you bitch and moan and watch you have no control over your life. I truly believe that you can't be happy with someone else without being happy with yourself first. You were never happy, so how can this be realistic? I think you are living in a fantasy world, and I'm just waiting for that to all hit, for you to realize that a man sweeping you off your feet and fixing all your money problems doesn't solve all your psychological issues. I don't think you're being rational, but you've never been rational, and I'm so glad I'm growing up learning to not be like you. I want to be the exact opposite of you. I am striving to be an independent person, I never EVER want to rely on someone else to fix my life. I want to marry someone because I love them, not because they saved me from myself. Can anyone really save you? I think you have to save yourself. I'm so glad I saved myself from being just like you.