Dec 21, 2005 19:32
I've realized the backlash of my actions months after the incident happened, but I guess that's not the bulk of it.
Everything else is.
I've lost friendship, gained attention I never wanted, and misplaced my integrity.
Yeah, kids, I'm a slut.
Oh, and a dumbass too.
Drug addict? Add that on.
Sure. I take heroin and smoke the crack rocks during any free time I can get.
And you all know I have so much free time on my hands.
I'm glad I could let everybody down so easily, because that's my goal.
To fuck up everybody's life.
That's my god damn purpose, isn't it?
Of course.
Because I'm the fucking perfect person in all this, and once I fuck up, well, hell, game over.
I'm tired of apologizing.
Tired of acting like I care, because at this point, I don't.
Not anymore.
I've taken abuse and all that other shit even while trying to prevent a kid who means the world to me from making the same mistakes I've already committed.
I don't expect people's respect, but if you've got a problem with me, then leave me the fuck alone.
I don't have time or energy to deal with you.
Thanks.