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i dont understand myself anymore. I used to think i had everything figured out, and i realized im just as lost as everyone else in this damn world.
This week i decided to just take a step back, try to figure some things out. I haven't really been talking to justin lately, on purpose too. I can't quite seem to figure it out, but it's just that I have no interest anymore. Talking to him has become the same, boring, dull conversations, its not fun. We got into a huge fight on Saturday night, i told him that i didn't think we were fun anymore. I know that sounds sooooo married-coupleish but, its the truth. We do the same boring ass shit every weekend and its become so fucking boring. I dont enjoy his company, and i doubt he enjoys mine, because I know I wouldnt be happy if i were to hang out with me either. Anyways, my plan or whatever I seem to be doing, is working out accordingly. I've just been ignoring justin for pretty much the entire week, acting like the things he does, doesn't bother me. And i started to realize that maybe faking all this has worked in my favor because I actually just dont notice him anymore. He keeps asking me if i love him still and why we're falling apart. And ive just said well you complain when up your ass doing everything for you, and then when i'm not there, you want me there. So make up your fucking mind.
I got asked to prom by Brent Jones, i'm really excited.
it was super random, but im still soooo excited :D.
This week i decided to just take a step back, try to figure some things out. I haven't really been talking to justin lately, on purpose too. I can't quite seem to figure it out, but it's just that I have no interest anymore. Talking to him has become the same, boring, dull conversations, its not fun. We got into a huge fight on Saturday night, i told him that i didn't think we were fun anymore. I know that sounds sooooo married-coupleish but, its the truth. We do the same boring ass shit every weekend and its become so fucking boring. I dont enjoy his company, and i doubt he enjoys mine, because I know I wouldnt be happy if i were to hang out with me either. Anyways, my plan or whatever I seem to be doing, is working out accordingly. I've just been ignoring justin for pretty much the entire week, acting like the things he does, doesn't bother me. And i started to realize that maybe faking all this has worked in my favor because I actually just dont notice him anymore. He keeps asking me if i love him still and why we're falling apart. And ive just said well you complain when up your ass doing everything for you, and then when i'm not there, you want me there. So make up your fucking mind.
I got asked to prom by Brent Jones, i'm really excited.
it was super random, but im still soooo excited :D.