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all i want is to be happy. its been so long since i've actually had a good day. probably a few months now. i just hate everything. nothing really goes right and secluding myself seems to be the only thing that works for me. ive come to the conclusion that all the people i thought were my friends, really arent. they are better off without me anyway. nobody makes an effort so why should i. they lost interest in me so i lost interest in everything. except him. lately hes been trying really hard. i dont know whether to except him back or not. hes hurt me so much is it really worth it to risk happening again. i dont know only time will tell. im tired. im always tired. what else is new. im always sick and tired. i never feel well. maybe if i actually got some sleep once in a while i wouldnt be so tired.