I wanna fuckin' tear you apart
It's been an ill minute since I've updated, so let me give you the rundown.
I had to move back in wtih my mother which is fucking sweet. I had planned on getting a house or condo with Cory and Nicole, but a telephone pole jumped in front of Cor Man's car. Now that idea is pretty much shit out the window. My mother is putting her house on the market and moving up north. I can either move up there with her or I have to find a place within like a month. And you know what would help me get a place ? A new fucking job where they actually have hours for me.
Every time it seems like my life is lining up and maybe I'll catch a break, I go through a sequence of events that knock me down lower than I was before.
I cut down on my drinking .. Like a lot. I know it's a good thing, but it's kind of depressing. I don't understand how when I'm out drinking with my friends I can be so confident. I feel almost invincible because of that confidence. But then when I'm sober I'm this self conscious, pessimistic shell of a person. Buton the other hand I've fucked up so much of my life because of what I do while drunk. It's a self destructive cycle and it sucks.
Ugh .. Gonna try to sleep this one off.
I had to move back in wtih my mother which is fucking sweet. I had planned on getting a house or condo with Cory and Nicole, but a telephone pole jumped in front of Cor Man's car. Now that idea is pretty much shit out the window. My mother is putting her house on the market and moving up north. I can either move up there with her or I have to find a place within like a month. And you know what would help me get a place ? A new fucking job where they actually have hours for me.
Every time it seems like my life is lining up and maybe I'll catch a break, I go through a sequence of events that knock me down lower than I was before.
I cut down on my drinking .. Like a lot. I know it's a good thing, but it's kind of depressing. I don't understand how when I'm out drinking with my friends I can be so confident. I feel almost invincible because of that confidence. But then when I'm sober I'm this self conscious, pessimistic shell of a person. Buton the other hand I've fucked up so much of my life because of what I do while drunk. It's a self destructive cycle and it sucks.
Ugh .. Gonna try to sleep this one off.