hey guys
wow i just learned a big lesson...things can get to hard in life for just one person to handle..theres been many things i dont have control of that i wish i did..so the only other option i took was to basically go against everyone including myself...what ive been doin with my life isnt really what i wanted to do or what i wanted to be..i guess i just havent found myself yet..but what i really want to do is to model and to not be trash..but what other people see when they look at me is the total oposite..dont get me wrong..to party sometimes is always fun..but to do it everynite and not focus on anything else is a waste of a perfect life...when messing around and "having fun" it just made everything worse for me..it really wasnt the answer to my problems..it really didnt help..ive made so many bad choices in my life latley..but thanksfully i have a family who cares about me...i thank god for it because if it werent for them..id be trash