Holy buckets.
Some day's are easier than others, today was not one of those days.
Tonight I broke down on my sister's porch, I almost fell down the stairs on my way to the car and then I realized I did not even have my keys. She yelled down to me, begging me to come back up to talk to her. I must have cried outside for over a half hour, it is bitter cold out and I could not feel my limbs. I can only imagine how she felt, she had bare feet. I could not move, I was crying with everything that I had and it made me want to vomit. When I finally went inside, we discussed a few reasons why I have been so emotional, because I did not start crying over my own issues... they just escaped halfway through. There was a variety of things I had kept inside since I last cried a week ago, they were all let loose in salty drops tonight. After talking and still not recovering from the cold, she offered hot chocolate and when I had finally calmed down enough to think clearly, I had a bit of an epiphany.
Despite that, I still feel like absolute shit. I am not sure if that is caused by lack of sleep or if I actually do have a legitimate reason to cry at this point.
Tonight I broke down on my sister's porch, I almost fell down the stairs on my way to the car and then I realized I did not even have my keys. She yelled down to me, begging me to come back up to talk to her. I must have cried outside for over a half hour, it is bitter cold out and I could not feel my limbs. I can only imagine how she felt, she had bare feet. I could not move, I was crying with everything that I had and it made me want to vomit. When I finally went inside, we discussed a few reasons why I have been so emotional, because I did not start crying over my own issues... they just escaped halfway through. There was a variety of things I had kept inside since I last cried a week ago, they were all let loose in salty drops tonight. After talking and still not recovering from the cold, she offered hot chocolate and when I had finally calmed down enough to think clearly, I had a bit of an epiphany.
Despite that, I still feel like absolute shit. I am not sure if that is caused by lack of sleep or if I actually do have a legitimate reason to cry at this point.