i think i'm in a rut

[ithoughtsh3kn3w]

i mean its strange. like... i'm so unmotivated and lethargic... i've been applying for jobs and looking for auditions but nothing seems worth "waking up" and getting excited about for some reason and its really starting to concern me...
i'm forced to like... look at myself and figure out who i am at this point in my life and i'm not really too thrilled with what i'm discovering. i'm not happy with myself and who i am / who i am becoming and i don't know why...
i suppose this is what my black book is for. i'll stop boring you.

on a lighter note... i got dumped today... )=

AndyBringerofPie: dude, I think you're taking this husband/wife thing a tad too far

iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: ??

AndyBringerofPie: I'm starting to get wierded out
AndyBringerofPie: I know you mean no ill, but its just strange
AndyBringerofPie: what happened to friends being just mates? we don't have to go around saying we're married

iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: i'm sorry
iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: i'll stop

AndyBringerofPie: don't be
AndyBringerofPie: man i sound like a big asshole

iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: lol no not really
iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: its actually kinda funny
iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: but i didnt mean to wierd u out
iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: i apologize

AndyBringerofPie: ha

iTHOUGHTsh3KN3W: so we're divorced... meh...

AndyBringerofPie: not divorced......we're still awesome, but we aren't married