I need to post more ;)
It's Friday and I'm beginning my 4 day weekend!!! I worked Monday, cutting my regular weekend schedule short by 1 day. And was able to flex today. So, 4 days away from the place that feels so draining lately. I know I'm fortunate to be employed in this day and age - but that doesn't change everything.
Today I wanted to get up in the AM and get tons of stuff done. My alarm wasn't on. So I slept in instead. I guess that is okay. I am going to the noon Bikram Yoga class, and hoping to give hiking on a more flat terrain a try for the first time in months. My physical therapist said I should give it a shot before my exit date. I would go first, but I also wouldn't mind heading out to Snohomish later today and seeing my mother... so we'll see how all that goes.
In other news:
I've been working hard at dropping a few lbs that I gained on medical leave. I refused the scale for 3 months and have been putting forth a moderate effort. I work out a lot - but I know the real formula is nutrition and food. Yesterday, a friend of mine (cop) and I were talking about his recent weight loss when he at some point said "you looked awesome when you were running." Well, first off. I've been running for a month or so now... it made me feel a bit down. He wasn't trying to be negative, but my #1 downfall is comparing myself to myself. I avoid now at all costs "back when I was like X" comparisons because they tend to put me into a depressive cycle.
It didn't fully put me there yesterday, but I was down the rest of the day. Yes, I can be sensitive. (No, he had no idea).
I'm good at playing stuff off when they bother me. Needless to say, I *KNOW* I've made several pounds progress in the last 2 months. Thing is, the past couple weeks I have been unsure of my progress. I was using clothes as a measure. I think I am ready to make the shift to weekly weigh ins again, and using numbers to guide me. Also trying to remember that numbers are not EVERYTHING.
Regardless, perhaps remembering I will be weighing in on my weekly weigh in day will cause me to think twice on decisions day in and day out also.
After refusing the scale for 3 months, I was brave. Today starts day 1 of weekly weigh ins. Preferred goal of 140, lowest ever adult weight was 138, and today I weigh 154. I can do this.
I think my first mini goal will be 149. Issue is, I'll be heading to Vegas for a personal growth workshop at the beginning of October for 5 days. I am hoping to ENJOY some of my time there, but also not destroy the next 2 weeks worth of work I'll be doing :P
Regardless, it's time to get back on the downward wagon and to set up better habits and a better plan at this point in my journey. Although I am far better than I've been in my adulthood - I still know where I'm happiest with my body. Fortunately, where I am at is not over weight. It's middle of the road, average. My preference is ... not to be average.
:)
Anyways. Looking forward to Yoga, HOPEFULLY A HIKE! And then possibly some time in the North side.
-Angela
Today I wanted to get up in the AM and get tons of stuff done. My alarm wasn't on. So I slept in instead. I guess that is okay. I am going to the noon Bikram Yoga class, and hoping to give hiking on a more flat terrain a try for the first time in months. My physical therapist said I should give it a shot before my exit date. I would go first, but I also wouldn't mind heading out to Snohomish later today and seeing my mother... so we'll see how all that goes.
In other news:
I've been working hard at dropping a few lbs that I gained on medical leave. I refused the scale for 3 months and have been putting forth a moderate effort. I work out a lot - but I know the real formula is nutrition and food. Yesterday, a friend of mine (cop) and I were talking about his recent weight loss when he at some point said "you looked awesome when you were running." Well, first off. I've been running for a month or so now... it made me feel a bit down. He wasn't trying to be negative, but my #1 downfall is comparing myself to myself. I avoid now at all costs "back when I was like X" comparisons because they tend to put me into a depressive cycle.
It didn't fully put me there yesterday, but I was down the rest of the day. Yes, I can be sensitive. (No, he had no idea).
I'm good at playing stuff off when they bother me. Needless to say, I *KNOW* I've made several pounds progress in the last 2 months. Thing is, the past couple weeks I have been unsure of my progress. I was using clothes as a measure. I think I am ready to make the shift to weekly weigh ins again, and using numbers to guide me. Also trying to remember that numbers are not EVERYTHING.
Regardless, perhaps remembering I will be weighing in on my weekly weigh in day will cause me to think twice on decisions day in and day out also.
After refusing the scale for 3 months, I was brave. Today starts day 1 of weekly weigh ins. Preferred goal of 140, lowest ever adult weight was 138, and today I weigh 154. I can do this.
I think my first mini goal will be 149. Issue is, I'll be heading to Vegas for a personal growth workshop at the beginning of October for 5 days. I am hoping to ENJOY some of my time there, but also not destroy the next 2 weeks worth of work I'll be doing :P
Regardless, it's time to get back on the downward wagon and to set up better habits and a better plan at this point in my journey. Although I am far better than I've been in my adulthood - I still know where I'm happiest with my body. Fortunately, where I am at is not over weight. It's middle of the road, average. My preference is ... not to be average.
:)
Anyways. Looking forward to Yoga, HOPEFULLY A HIKE! And then possibly some time in the North side.
-Angela