Another day here
Last night by the end of the day I was experiencing "knee pain."
I talked with Jim a bit about it. I had done all the physical therapy exercises - I'd used their tips all day long (and I am beginning to see why this place avoids assigned blocks of work outs, instead they opt for everyday movement changes).
It adds up.
By the end of the day, my legs were sore. And my knees. I was panicing again though.
When in the discussion with Jim, it was apparent:
Most likely the pain was muscle pain, and not structure pain. In that sense, I suppose that is wonderful news.
We went for a 30 minute walk together in the 'Quah. That was nice. It gave us a chance to talk.
I really enjoyed it.
We haven't had a lot of focused talk time in not a while. Well - without food involved.
I try to keep our meal speak to simple terms mostly because I know if I start discussing bigger issues, I get anxious and the first thing I do is I actually start wolfing down my meal and not even noticing what I ate.
Which, I dislike greatly. It's just all around no good.
Anywho, we had some life discussions. I find him incredibly refreshing most of the time. And it never ceases to amaze me how much his experiences in Iraq have shaped him. It's not so incredible, but then again - the lense through which he views this world is so much based off of so many of those things he went through.
He definitely has some good advise, ideas, stories, and comparisons to be made. Sometimes in the wrong mood I am resistant to the fact they are "the same," but as I told him last night - usually 2 days later I get what he was saying and I become more than full of gratitude. (I don't think he realized that until I told him yesterday).
I can't put it into words, too difficult.
The discussion stemmed off of the fact that I WAS experiencing pain. I was unsure of whether this was "the same" as my experiences prior - or not. This drums up the worries that, what if I didn't really make progress in the last month etc.
Well, that's hardly possible. My tendons no longer are sore. What is sore, is the areas around my knees (fat pads under the kneecap can get irritated when the rest of the knee is pissy).
After discussing the nature of the pain with Jim, he suggested muscle pain. I have done weird stuff to the muscles before exercising for PTs, so this suggestion - I felt, was probably accurate.
Was feeling like I wanted to try walking anyway.
So, walked, went grocery shopping for quality food that will turn into delicious Angela-made meals.
(Yeay).
Went home, iced the knees. Watched the rest of the movie I made Jim watch (an old favorite, "To Sir, with Love.")
Was then out like a light.
Woke up today feeling much better in the knees. THhis allows me 2 pieces of information:
1- The walk was not too much
2- Perhaps machine upgrades, at a rate of one per day or so, will work out for me.
3- Real healing has happened.
This being said, I would like to get onto my next bit of work for the day.
I am sure I will post more on LJ to try and track how my progress is going on a health side.
And well. Because it sucks to look back and realize I created a void in my personal archives.
-Angela
I talked with Jim a bit about it. I had done all the physical therapy exercises - I'd used their tips all day long (and I am beginning to see why this place avoids assigned blocks of work outs, instead they opt for everyday movement changes).
It adds up.
By the end of the day, my legs were sore. And my knees. I was panicing again though.
When in the discussion with Jim, it was apparent:
Most likely the pain was muscle pain, and not structure pain. In that sense, I suppose that is wonderful news.
We went for a 30 minute walk together in the 'Quah. That was nice. It gave us a chance to talk.
I really enjoyed it.
We haven't had a lot of focused talk time in not a while. Well - without food involved.
I try to keep our meal speak to simple terms mostly because I know if I start discussing bigger issues, I get anxious and the first thing I do is I actually start wolfing down my meal and not even noticing what I ate.
Which, I dislike greatly. It's just all around no good.
Anywho, we had some life discussions. I find him incredibly refreshing most of the time. And it never ceases to amaze me how much his experiences in Iraq have shaped him. It's not so incredible, but then again - the lense through which he views this world is so much based off of so many of those things he went through.
He definitely has some good advise, ideas, stories, and comparisons to be made. Sometimes in the wrong mood I am resistant to the fact they are "the same," but as I told him last night - usually 2 days later I get what he was saying and I become more than full of gratitude. (I don't think he realized that until I told him yesterday).
I can't put it into words, too difficult.
The discussion stemmed off of the fact that I WAS experiencing pain. I was unsure of whether this was "the same" as my experiences prior - or not. This drums up the worries that, what if I didn't really make progress in the last month etc.
Well, that's hardly possible. My tendons no longer are sore. What is sore, is the areas around my knees (fat pads under the kneecap can get irritated when the rest of the knee is pissy).
After discussing the nature of the pain with Jim, he suggested muscle pain. I have done weird stuff to the muscles before exercising for PTs, so this suggestion - I felt, was probably accurate.
Was feeling like I wanted to try walking anyway.
So, walked, went grocery shopping for quality food that will turn into delicious Angela-made meals.
(Yeay).
Went home, iced the knees. Watched the rest of the movie I made Jim watch (an old favorite, "To Sir, with Love.")
Was then out like a light.
Woke up today feeling much better in the knees. THhis allows me 2 pieces of information:
1- The walk was not too much
2- Perhaps machine upgrades, at a rate of one per day or so, will work out for me.
3- Real healing has happened.
This being said, I would like to get onto my next bit of work for the day.
I am sure I will post more on LJ to try and track how my progress is going on a health side.
And well. Because it sucks to look back and realize I created a void in my personal archives.
-Angela