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I'm having a freak out and I'm not sure how to make it stop. I've been home alone all night and I feel like I wish someone was here with me. I need some kind of support. David is at home. I don't know if he's still sleeping or not, but whatever he's doing is apparently more important. I'm irritated with him over that, but do I have a right to be? I just want him to be here for me. I want him to calm me down. I'm fed up with everything right now. I'm sick of not knowing what my future holds, what i want to do with my life. I'm sick of being broke. I'm sick of feeling so fat. I'm sick of feeling dependent on others. I'm sick of feeling lonely. I'm just sick... Why am I so angry with myself?? Where do I even begin to clean up? It seems hopeless sometimes. This freak out needs to stop already.