Jealousy.....
Yes the evil green monster has hit me...and she's hit me hard.
Though... I'm not sure exactly what it is that i am jealous of. I love all of my friends, and i want them all to be happy. SO why would i be jealous of two of them finding happiness? It's horrible, and i feel bad that i do lol.
Anyway on more happier notes, Am going to fredonia for the weekend of the 4th...APO Banquet, and even if i don't get to game, i at least get to intergect random comments of absurdity. THat will make me sorta happy i guess. Although there are some things that i wish might be changed... but it isna gonna happen.
Time isn't on my side it seems, so with that in mind i have to let go of dreams and try to figue out how to find better things. There must be something taht i can do. THere must be some random thing that would make me happy, really happy. all i have to do is find it. but for now i hevan't...oh well.
Though... I'm not sure exactly what it is that i am jealous of. I love all of my friends, and i want them all to be happy. SO why would i be jealous of two of them finding happiness? It's horrible, and i feel bad that i do lol.
Anyway on more happier notes, Am going to fredonia for the weekend of the 4th...APO Banquet, and even if i don't get to game, i at least get to intergect random comments of absurdity. THat will make me sorta happy i guess. Although there are some things that i wish might be changed... but it isna gonna happen.
Time isn't on my side it seems, so with that in mind i have to let go of dreams and try to figue out how to find better things. There must be something taht i can do. THere must be some random thing that would make me happy, really happy. all i have to do is find it. but for now i hevan't...oh well.