*smashes head on edge of desk until brain falls out*
OK folks. This is another one of my entries. Last weekend(on Nov first) Was the BACCHUS midnight breakfast. I survived luckily, but i was exhausted and am still not sure as to whether i've recooperated or not yet. Anyway, right before i went at 2 pm to start decorating, my Ma called and Informed me that my6 Grandma had been in the hospital that weak, another heart attack. You have no idea how much i want to go home and visit now. And the accursed thing is... I can't go home. Why not?Because of APO final interview, APO sleepover, and then the next weekend the second half of the CPE modul, and that same weekend is Kate's Concert for the boy's and girls club. In all basicality am busy as hell, and i don't want to break more than i have. I'm confident that i can do this. The only problem right now is that if i don't get everything right, am screwed, and i'll have let everyone down. I'm afraid tpo let everyone down. If it does turn out that I'm even anywhere possibly letting them down... i don't know, but i don't think anyone will hear from me anymore at that point. I hope it doesn't go that far, but i can't handle disapointing everyone again. the first time my bro asked me why i didn't just commit suicide rather than come home... and i've really been wondering that myself now. And as much as people say i'm nice. I don't think i'm nice, am a horrid gollumish creature. It doesn't really matter though. IN the end it never matters, all that matters is that one tries your best. I'm trying, but if it doesn't work out... I'm not sure i'm planning on staying much longer at that rate. But i shouldn't be worryiong about that now should i? no. i should be thinking about the positive things.
unfortunetly there really doesn't seem to be left in that branch of my existence.
Oh! I "bumped" into a new group that i've decided i like. Nightwish. They're Goth-rock. That's all i know so far, and i know that because i asked and someone told me.
well wish me luck.... am going to need all the luck i can get by the end of this. No kidding.
My life is rated G.
What is your life rated?
unfortunetly there really doesn't seem to be left in that branch of my existence.
Oh! I "bumped" into a new group that i've decided i like. Nightwish. They're Goth-rock. That's all i know so far, and i know that because i asked and someone told me.
well wish me luck.... am going to need all the luck i can get by the end of this. No kidding.
My life is rated G.
What is your life rated?