the good stuff
“The older person does not realize the soul-flights of the adolescent.”
All of my life, I looked at figures like John Wayne as a man, as someone who blazed a trail, and made a name for himself. But now, I just look at him as an actor playing a role. And I wonder what adventurer he was based on.
As I grow older, I have ideas of traveling the world. Searching for peace and quiet and the real way of life, the way of life that is so far from modern cities. Reading Into the Wild, I realize that my dream is just a dream. It doesn’t really exist. Every little boy grew up an explorer, whether it was the kitchen, the ghetto, or the woods behind his house. We all want to search. We all want to find the coolest things we can, and relish in them.
Almost ready to finish college, my biggest adventure is nipping at my heels. I’m not really sure I know what its going to be, here a year before I’m done. But I know what its not going to be. As introspective as I would like to be, looking inside myself only reveals my desire to love and be loved, not only by my God, but by my wife- whomever she may be. I guess my adventure will be finding her, but I am never so sure that I want to have to fight to find that. I would however for her affection once I meet her.
We all want to be someone’s knight in shining armor. But as far as going off on my own, I’m not looking so forward to that. Alone is no way to be.
In the woods, alone, and leaving my life behind is nothing but a cop-out. Change can only happen when you get out there and make it happen.
I’m glad that I am where I am. I feel like this is going somewhere. At whatever pace it may be. I’m learning to trust Jesus more and people less. I’m learning from Deana Marie that its good to take time. I really wish, and desire, that in a year, she is still the one challenging me to be better. To love harder, and seek God more and more with all I have.
I do understand what it feels like to be imposed to do something by your parents. As little as it may be, it still feels funny. They want me to graduate, but I am thankful that they want for me whatever I choose to want for myself. As far as I would want to or love to run as far from them, I need them. I need my mom for her love, and my dad for his direction. I couldn’t imagine being somewhere with out them by choice. I don’t think I could consciously cut them out of my life, and for the first time I am realizing this, and happy about it. does this mean that I am going to be closer to them, probably not, but it does mean that I am more aware of their love for me, and my need for it.
It’s a good thing.
It’s a good thing to have my parents
It’s a good thing to have Josh Parker in my life
It’s a good thing to be where I am
It’s a good thing to have the job I have
And it’s a good thing to realize all this.
All of my life, I looked at figures like John Wayne as a man, as someone who blazed a trail, and made a name for himself. But now, I just look at him as an actor playing a role. And I wonder what adventurer he was based on.
As I grow older, I have ideas of traveling the world. Searching for peace and quiet and the real way of life, the way of life that is so far from modern cities. Reading Into the Wild, I realize that my dream is just a dream. It doesn’t really exist. Every little boy grew up an explorer, whether it was the kitchen, the ghetto, or the woods behind his house. We all want to search. We all want to find the coolest things we can, and relish in them.
Almost ready to finish college, my biggest adventure is nipping at my heels. I’m not really sure I know what its going to be, here a year before I’m done. But I know what its not going to be. As introspective as I would like to be, looking inside myself only reveals my desire to love and be loved, not only by my God, but by my wife- whomever she may be. I guess my adventure will be finding her, but I am never so sure that I want to have to fight to find that. I would however for her affection once I meet her.
We all want to be someone’s knight in shining armor. But as far as going off on my own, I’m not looking so forward to that. Alone is no way to be.
In the woods, alone, and leaving my life behind is nothing but a cop-out. Change can only happen when you get out there and make it happen.
I’m glad that I am where I am. I feel like this is going somewhere. At whatever pace it may be. I’m learning to trust Jesus more and people less. I’m learning from Deana Marie that its good to take time. I really wish, and desire, that in a year, she is still the one challenging me to be better. To love harder, and seek God more and more with all I have.
I do understand what it feels like to be imposed to do something by your parents. As little as it may be, it still feels funny. They want me to graduate, but I am thankful that they want for me whatever I choose to want for myself. As far as I would want to or love to run as far from them, I need them. I need my mom for her love, and my dad for his direction. I couldn’t imagine being somewhere with out them by choice. I don’t think I could consciously cut them out of my life, and for the first time I am realizing this, and happy about it. does this mean that I am going to be closer to them, probably not, but it does mean that I am more aware of their love for me, and my need for it.
It’s a good thing.
It’s a good thing to have my parents
It’s a good thing to have Josh Parker in my life
It’s a good thing to be where I am
It’s a good thing to have the job I have
And it’s a good thing to realize all this.