..::rave::..
how much do you want to be that i took taht pic last summer on this exact day
chris and tim hitting on some spanish chicks and an asian...yea i remember that...wow we were so sober but felt so high, totally crazy.
by the way - dont go to a rave sober and plan on staying sober - cause it wont work out and if it does, you wont have any fun
so im thinking about a year back in time, and how much ive changed. just yesterday this kid was bitching me out about how immature i am and how little ive been through and how i cant think or feel certain things cause im too young. he said i cant be in love. he said its infatuation. he said that i cant understand certain things because im only 17. what a dumbass! haha hes so bitter bout his heartbreak or whatever that he put it on me...lame, huh? hes way pretty and really nice and very funny...but what a douche bag to tell me "yea your immature and your relationship wont work out i bet you in 2 years you wont be together" YEA SO WHAT THE FUCKS YOUR POINT? WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH? he made no sense. hes like "im not getting through to you" well no shit...youre not making any points other than making yourself look like a douche. sorry but im not immature, if i was immature i would have blocked you and cried over it and took you off my friends list. also...im not immature cause ive been supporting myself since i was 16 MOTHERFUCKER!
but i dont really care. we kinda just got into a fight. well get over it. i think its cause hes totally sober and hes really upset about his current situation being that his parents caught him with booze and bud and shit and now hes totally in deep shit i guess so he took it out on me probably without even knowing it. it happens a lot. so i just kept feeding it to him. kept letting him vent. he was like "im done with this conversation" but everytime i would say something he would respond. if he was done he would have signed off or not replied. silly boy...he knew he was fustrated with more than just me, i was just a really easy target. its cool. i really dont care. im just happy that it didnt get to me. whatever happens between me and my man is my business, and if im gonna stay with him forever then so fuckin be it! i guess he either just wanted to warn me or protect me but all he was doing was making himself look really mean and heartless. its bad to risk that for another persons mistakes...shit the only way they are gonna learn is if they fuck things up. nobody listens anymore...and i was telling him to listen to me when i was totally ignoring him. funny shit. i dont think he realized how far from serious i was. he was really getting pissed tho. we both contradicted ourselves about a bagillion times. that tends to happen when ppl argue i guess. i dont fight much, and i when i do, lets just say i dont fuckin loose. im a good speaker, i kno how to put shit. and when im not listened to - i dont listen. its that simple.
its called "medicine" and he really didnt like the taste of his own - IM AWESOME and i feel fine. it got to me at first but now its over and
i want to go to a rave again! but i dont want to do X and die. soooooo its lookin like its not gonna happen.
whatever.
k ill update again later bye
xo
kels