Today

[itcomesinpints]

Woke up and for some reason decided it would be a good idea to skip breakfast. Tried doing maths and chemistry without much success - maths especially bad with each problem taking about 20 minutes without any imminent solutions. Gave up without finishing - I couldn't really focus as I felt stressed and worried (and hungry). And I skipped the one lecture I had today because I didn't feel like going. I went on a run around campus with a few other people - didn't really feel like it but forced myself to go anyway and was reminded again of how unfit I am and how I'm never going to be able to run 13 miles. We went to the Plug afterwards for a drink of coffee, and I had 2 heavy chemistry books with me that I'd just renewed in the library - that I've had for weeks and have barely opened -that were just mocking me with all the things I should understand and how behind I was and I was tired and as I was walking back it started raining, and then suddenly it was chucking it down and I was getting wet and the books were getting wet and my feet were getting wet.

And suddenly the place I was in was such a wonderful place to be and none of the above rubbish even mattered, what mattered was being alive, now, and walking through the rain and not caring about a thing in the world.

File under: life