Well, FUCK.
So, it's been a heck of a long time since I've updated this nonsense, and I feel the need to write.
Dating blows.
About 2 months ago, I managed to garner the attention of a coworker. I had a birthday party sort of thing out at The Esquire, and I invited her out for that. Everyone had a good time and we kind of danced around the fact that we were both attracted to one another. A few days later, she emails me asking me if I'm going to ask her out, or if she has to be the man and ask me. It was cute and I was impressed that she would do that. So, I ask her out. We go out on a date and it goes pretty ok. I think she was expecting more of a hot and heavy sort of date, but I don't really roll like that. We manage to have a couple of lunches and what not over the next couple of weeks. It all culminates with us going out for her 21st redo (since she had just recently had a baby, and couldn't do much for her actual 21st). It's us and a bunch of mutual friends. We have a good time and according to another friend, I was "an absolute sweetheart," but this chica was acting like there was really nothing going on between us. We all say our good-nights and I head over to two friends' place to hang out and talk. I get a text a little while after that from the girl, explaining that she's not trying to be mean, she just has a lot going on right now and isn't ready for anything yet.
What a flaming crock of bullshit. IN A TEXT, no less. I didn't fuck her on our first date, so I'm sure that made her lose interest. Fine. I really don't need that kind of person in my life anyway.
About two weeks after that nonsense ends, I see someone else at work who catches my eye. We say hi a few times as we pass in the hallway, and I finally manage to chat her up during one of these infrequent meetings. At the end of the conversation, I ask her if she has plans for the weekend. She says no, so I ask her out. It's been 3 weeks thus far. I'm very attracted to her physically and intellectually. Up until today, I've gotten that same impression from her. Well, today was a little odd. I hadn't seen her since Friday night, and that was only for a couple of hours. Today we had dinner on my lunch break. It was kind of ok. That's what I'll say about it. Though, in my mind, she's already said that she's not interested in me anymore and doesn't think it's worth trying to see me any more.
I asked her what she's doing this weekend, and she has a 5 mile run in another town nearby in the morning (Saturday). I asked her if she wanted to do something that night, and she said "Why don't we play it by ear."
Fucking great.
That means that I'll call on Saturday afternoon and she'll say that she doesn't really feel like going out and she'll segue into how she doesn't feel like we really [have anything in common/have made a connection/have a crazy attraction thing going on/need to stay together in order to save the world]. And that will be the end of that. I'll probably go out at that point and buy a pack of cigarettes and a twelve pack of beer. It'll be glorious.
Fucking fuck fuck, fucking fuckity fuck. I think I just need to find someone who is crazy about me then develop feelings. Or, maybe I should just be one of those guys who is all about the fuck, then if something else develops, great. Unfortunately, that's not me. I'm not aggressive, I'm not a player... hell, I'm a fucking teddy bear.
Looking for a home: one slightly worn teddy bear, has nice eyes, inquire within.
If things don't go that way on Saturday, I'll be fucking amazed. Can you tell that I'm feeling a bit pessimistic right now?
Fuck it. Maybe I just need to go get laid. =(
Dating blows.
About 2 months ago, I managed to garner the attention of a coworker. I had a birthday party sort of thing out at The Esquire, and I invited her out for that. Everyone had a good time and we kind of danced around the fact that we were both attracted to one another. A few days later, she emails me asking me if I'm going to ask her out, or if she has to be the man and ask me. It was cute and I was impressed that she would do that. So, I ask her out. We go out on a date and it goes pretty ok. I think she was expecting more of a hot and heavy sort of date, but I don't really roll like that. We manage to have a couple of lunches and what not over the next couple of weeks. It all culminates with us going out for her 21st redo (since she had just recently had a baby, and couldn't do much for her actual 21st). It's us and a bunch of mutual friends. We have a good time and according to another friend, I was "an absolute sweetheart," but this chica was acting like there was really nothing going on between us. We all say our good-nights and I head over to two friends' place to hang out and talk. I get a text a little while after that from the girl, explaining that she's not trying to be mean, she just has a lot going on right now and isn't ready for anything yet.
What a flaming crock of bullshit. IN A TEXT, no less. I didn't fuck her on our first date, so I'm sure that made her lose interest. Fine. I really don't need that kind of person in my life anyway.
About two weeks after that nonsense ends, I see someone else at work who catches my eye. We say hi a few times as we pass in the hallway, and I finally manage to chat her up during one of these infrequent meetings. At the end of the conversation, I ask her if she has plans for the weekend. She says no, so I ask her out. It's been 3 weeks thus far. I'm very attracted to her physically and intellectually. Up until today, I've gotten that same impression from her. Well, today was a little odd. I hadn't seen her since Friday night, and that was only for a couple of hours. Today we had dinner on my lunch break. It was kind of ok. That's what I'll say about it. Though, in my mind, she's already said that she's not interested in me anymore and doesn't think it's worth trying to see me any more.
I asked her what she's doing this weekend, and she has a 5 mile run in another town nearby in the morning (Saturday). I asked her if she wanted to do something that night, and she said "Why don't we play it by ear."
Fucking great.
That means that I'll call on Saturday afternoon and she'll say that she doesn't really feel like going out and she'll segue into how she doesn't feel like we really [have anything in common/have made a connection/have a crazy attraction thing going on/need to stay together in order to save the world]. And that will be the end of that. I'll probably go out at that point and buy a pack of cigarettes and a twelve pack of beer. It'll be glorious.
Fucking fuck fuck, fucking fuckity fuck. I think I just need to find someone who is crazy about me then develop feelings. Or, maybe I should just be one of those guys who is all about the fuck, then if something else develops, great. Unfortunately, that's not me. I'm not aggressive, I'm not a player... hell, I'm a fucking teddy bear.
Looking for a home: one slightly worn teddy bear, has nice eyes, inquire within.
If things don't go that way on Saturday, I'll be fucking amazed. Can you tell that I'm feeling a bit pessimistic right now?
Fuck it. Maybe I just need to go get laid. =(