identity crisis.
The more I continue with archi, the more I think I'm losing my focus in life.
Whichever affects which, I guess this is the time where we begin questioning our role in this society.
What are we 'meant' to do, and christians would ask "what is my life-long mission?"
I used to think I'll grow up doing what I really love and enjoy but I guess as we grow older, especially in THIS kind of country, there are not many options to earn for a living. sigh. I'm taking a few days off school work to re-look at the remainders of my ruined life.
Went for some chemicalengine welcome teaparty with jieyu few days back and the seniors were talking about science research, biochemistry, nanoscience, gosh, I missed these terms. I can't help but to feel really sad about how I gave up what I dreamt of doing, so easily. Stupid. bleh. I really wanna re-live my passion.
Not that I detest archi but somehow, when archi becomes an emotive/emotional/artsyfartsy element I get really uncomfortable. I liked the idea of exploring structure and materials, but they always try to push us to the arts side:(
why can't they just let us take the approach we like?
sigh. I know I whine a lot here but it's the only space I can whine like a freak and feel good about it. Sorry friends. emo-much /: