Sigh..When's it all gonna just go away...

[italys_explorer]

Well back to the same old feeling of not being myself...I hate this so much. People around me are having problems and I feel bad cuz I can't be superwoman and prove them to see what I see. I'm so unsure of making desicions lately. I wanna go thru with one thing...but then something always stops me. I can't stand the game of tug-o-war in my head anymore... It's so frustrating and tiring. I want to go for one thing...but something always seems to drag me back right where I started. I can't explain it to anyone else, cuz they all are set on their own opinions. I'm being opened minded like I should, I didn't think it'd be so hard. I prolly sound like I'm just rambling on and on, and I am. But this is the only place I can left off some steam and some shit as to where I don't get a remark back. My barriors have gone up again. I don't know who to trust anymore. I don't have what I used to have and that scares me to think I'm in this alone. I wanna go for this and get it all back, but then the feeling of uncomfortableness sets in once again.

W/e I don't even know what I'm trying to say anymore...

Life isn't the easiest thing to live...

- Dora