a week left
well i got 7 days until sentecing day. and im can say that i have a peace about it. i have come to terms and realize that i am man enough to handle whatever in this life comes my way. and i have a new found love and respect for the people who have been there from day one until now and will be there even if i go. i have a heart full of gratitude to people who put there neck on the line for me to help out any way they could. the letters i got from some of my associates and friends could never be put into words of how much gratitude i have for all that theyve done. i only wish i could of done more, and that i would know now my hard work and dedication to bettering my self paid off. but unfortunately for i dont if it is. but alls i do know is that now i know who my friends are. i know who cares, i know the people who i love with all my heart, and i will protect an fight for and will always believe in. even when i was at my worst, at rock bottom somebody was there with a hand outstretched to pick me up agina. through a hug, a phone call, a smile, a joke even, just being there when i couldnt do anything else but just let tears roll down my face for hours it would seem. there were moments in th past 7 months, that i didnt think i could even make it through another day at all. tormented with negativity all around, while getting shit piled on top. but thats when you find that inner strength and you pull that shit out of you to not give, and not be a quitter no matter how much it hurts. or what you got to go through, no matter what goes on and on in your head. somehow, i have fought and battled this thing for months and i can only say through this experience not only has changedd me as a person for the better. but my life has not been at a better place ever than rght now. i have so muh going for me for this year that it would be crushing to through away once again my dream, that to help people. Epyon Star is the charity that i am the secretary of and will be officially up and running very soon. thats right me and an associate started our own charity!!!!! i am so happy about it. alls i want to do with the rest of my life is spend it trying to mke a difference in a positive way for someone who is less fortuante, at a bad place in life, going down a road that will lead them to the same hell i just walked out of. theres no greater joy to me, than do something to help somebody for nothing in return except for karma to have my back.
i have had everything an anything in thif l;ife taking from me that i loved. my ourpose for living hasw been thrown out the window at lest a dozen times. when i even start to thnik about it a tear starts rolling down my eye, theres some things you never will get over no matter what. but on the otherside of this, i have sat back and looked through this hour glass thats been my life and sadly enough once again i get left and thrown a side by some of the most important people to me. its a tradgedy for me to have to watch and let that happen but theres no more chasing, and running after and fighting to keep that wants to walk away.
alls i know is this, i know who i am, i know the person i have become is exactly who i am. it took my a long time to figure it out. i have found my purpose in this life and i know i want to do, thats just to help people until the day they put me in the ground. my heart is full today of thankfullness and gratefullness humbly towards God Almighty who has blessed. only if some of you knew the half of how my heart has went out to you, and i have cryed and prayed for God to help. theres a power in faith, and i have a lot of it right now for myself and for the man upstairs. to know where i came from to where i am now is nothing shy of a miracle. please keep me in your prayers and thoughts for next week. i can only hope and have faith an injustice will not happen there next week. to all a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! make this your year, i know its going to be mine. to sell your self short of how much you mean to people, dont ever second guess how special you are. one in a million, and i hope you never change the great person you are. dont sell out your individualism for a meager part of acceptance to the norm of society, distinguish from the rest to know that your not your average sterotypical anything. be yourself, go to new heights, cherish everday you have with someone who loves you. a day without love is not a day, it is death.
i hope and pray you all take care of yourself, and wish the best this life could ever offer you. to not watse another one away. do it for you, i got your back you ever need anything. 8781654 new number new year, new joe, new start, new girl(hopefully), new charity, new job, new day, new everything. God Bless
i have had everything an anything in thif l;ife taking from me that i loved. my ourpose for living hasw been thrown out the window at lest a dozen times. when i even start to thnik about it a tear starts rolling down my eye, theres some things you never will get over no matter what. but on the otherside of this, i have sat back and looked through this hour glass thats been my life and sadly enough once again i get left and thrown a side by some of the most important people to me. its a tradgedy for me to have to watch and let that happen but theres no more chasing, and running after and fighting to keep that wants to walk away.
alls i know is this, i know who i am, i know the person i have become is exactly who i am. it took my a long time to figure it out. i have found my purpose in this life and i know i want to do, thats just to help people until the day they put me in the ground. my heart is full today of thankfullness and gratefullness humbly towards God Almighty who has blessed. only if some of you knew the half of how my heart has went out to you, and i have cryed and prayed for God to help. theres a power in faith, and i have a lot of it right now for myself and for the man upstairs. to know where i came from to where i am now is nothing shy of a miracle. please keep me in your prayers and thoughts for next week. i can only hope and have faith an injustice will not happen there next week. to all a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! make this your year, i know its going to be mine. to sell your self short of how much you mean to people, dont ever second guess how special you are. one in a million, and i hope you never change the great person you are. dont sell out your individualism for a meager part of acceptance to the norm of society, distinguish from the rest to know that your not your average sterotypical anything. be yourself, go to new heights, cherish everday you have with someone who loves you. a day without love is not a day, it is death.
i hope and pray you all take care of yourself, and wish the best this life could ever offer you. to not watse another one away. do it for you, i got your back you ever need anything. 8781654 new number new year, new joe, new start, new girl(hopefully), new charity, new job, new day, new everything. God Bless