never really settled
its just the same shit different day and i am very unhappy with myself this week. so i had to drop two classes this sememster thanks in part to being sick and one of my teachers being a toalt fuck head and telling me who would not pass me at mid terms, but fuck it whatever i just gotta play catch up next time around. i am very pissed about this though. everything within me wanted to be good in all my classes but shit fucking happens and i missed to much of one class and i cant do shit about but bust ass for the next couple semesters and be out. i gotta do this. and i have to do this weel. this is my future my everything for right now. i mean this music shit is hard. vewry hard, stressful costly and becoming a real big pain in my as. i would die to juste able to play and write and perform for the rest of my life. some way some how, by the supernatural forces that do work in this world, i fucking will be a rockstar and will be big. i dont give a fuck how, when or what, but i will bust ass almost exhaust myself to no end until i hit it. its what i dream off, my very driving force to get up and out of bed in the morning. and i wont stop writing, i wont stop singing, i will do anything i can to make money and changes people's lives with our music. thats right not mine, ours. me and the fella's im jamming with, we are all on the same page in every single way. and there reall incredible muscians as well as there are many of them, but not only be probably some of the best in ct, but there drive, and there heart is just like mine. oh man these guys gimme a nice little boost of confidence everytime i start to slip up, or fall away or some shit happens. writers block hit me for a while but now i know what it is i want to say, and they got my back.
well anyways besdies that and since last week not to much happen, after 420 that weekend i went to a banging party in coventry, missed x-lot but chilled till i couldt walk anymore from being highly intoxicated, then to sunday to having a double shift to getting to this week fullk of bad shit so far, but almost to my show tommorow night, and then theres always tonight and however the hell were gonna have fun. actually i think its club blue tonight maybe, but if not getting twisted at somebodys crib at central. not realy sure. but its nice to finally have some days off to get my shit together and keep on stacking this cash thanks to my new little side businees, which is going well for today, but anyways for now y'all thats really it, im gonna start putting up some of our songs so please feel fre to take a look and leave your thoughts feed back always welcome. lj losers stay fly!!!!
well anyways besdies that and since last week not to much happen, after 420 that weekend i went to a banging party in coventry, missed x-lot but chilled till i couldt walk anymore from being highly intoxicated, then to sunday to having a double shift to getting to this week fullk of bad shit so far, but almost to my show tommorow night, and then theres always tonight and however the hell were gonna have fun. actually i think its club blue tonight maybe, but if not getting twisted at somebodys crib at central. not realy sure. but its nice to finally have some days off to get my shit together and keep on stacking this cash thanks to my new little side businees, which is going well for today, but anyways for now y'all thats really it, im gonna start putting up some of our songs so please feel fre to take a look and leave your thoughts feed back always welcome. lj losers stay fly!!!!