dont fucking read it....

[italyrocks]

shits not good, i fucking hate everything and alot of people right now. i dont got a lot of time cause im boutto be out, just got out of class. i havent slept in three days partly do to an awesome fucking weekedn that i took all my anger out on partying, a good but not wise avenue. but it was only a temporary satisfaction as everything in life is. but it was great, such a good awesome ridiculous fun time. but when coming back to the sober world of being near deathly sick and all the shit i put off for two fucking days cause i was almost to the point where it hurt to move. but i kept going on and busted balls all week to get this car shit settled. only to come out getting bent right over and fucked by a bunch of assholes who were supposed to be working for me. but in the better part of last week as i spent my personal free time on the phone gtting quote's, such a bitch and going crazy trying to get that car. but unfortunately right now a loan for a good used car will not be happening so i have decided to go to plan x and buy a piece. so i'll be straight. but still what i went through to do this is what takes most people few years maybe even 1 or so, i did and was done in three days. it literaly took 5 days to find insurance for that fucking car and the day, the fucking day i get it these assholes tell me, we havent found a loan yet but were trying another bank.so i payed these cats 50$ to not do shit for me. i was like 5 days and you made two apps for banks, are you trying to not have customers. i mean seriously if one more beligerant, out of line disrespectful word or action happens...dead. i really am on edge, and fucking ready to jump off and take anybody the fuck with me. my line to snap is worn so thin just as well as my patients with not only assholes and dickheads, but shady, sketchy, shisty ass fuckheads who actually still think i give a fuck about them. you know if one thing i have learned in life, actions do speak louder than words, much louder. both ways to good and bad. so what you say, back it up, if not then dont speak. i got no problem with confrontations at all, not problem crawling so far up your ass you'll never shit right again. i really am hoping so bad that some porr sucker just says or does the wrong thing, cause it will be a wrap so fast. i am ready to lose it one somebody and cant wait for a fight. call me immature and say all that other shit but just because you dont settle shit my way do mean you can fucking judge me. that shit is ignorance at its finest and my biggest pet peeve. most of you dont fucking know me at all, and those of you who think you do, you have no real fucking idea. yo be easy with what you do, im watching, listening, waiting dont slip up, one wrong move. haha, thats what puts a smile on my face, thats what gets me out of bed in the morning. my own personal insanity and i love every second of it.

p.s. disassociations will start happening, you know who you are and if you dont, you'll find out when you get a phone call.