Apr 15, 2007 21:44
I dont know what I want. But I get the feeling I dont like the direction things are heading.
Worst day ever.
Where the hell is my money. Why can't school be over. I'm sick and tired of adjusting my life around imbiguous, judgemental, forceful groups of faceless people.
I'm sad my phone bill was so high and I need to write a 4 page paper. I really do like the life I've lived so far, but sometime I want to go back and get the things I never got. It might be too late now.
I saw something on television the other day about this guy with ALS and the research that was based largely on him for finding a cure. I cried through the whole thing, watching it, waiting for the happy part where they find his cure and everything goes back to the way it was when they were all happy. After 2 hours they lost all their funding and the man died in his sleep after his respirator was unplugged in the middle of the night. And they never found a cure. It was absolutely heart wrenching.
I just can't cut the umbilical cord. I still need my mom. I won't be taking summer classes here after all. I need to go home.