Love and other such things...
Yeah so I watched 50 First Dates last night and it got me thinking about how great it would be if I were to have some one in my life like Adam Sandler's character. I mean who wouldn't want a guy who was willing to make you fall in love with him everyday. I may not have the memory problem like Drew's character but I'd still like a guy like him. Something I really liked about that movie was the music. You had classic Beach Boys & Bob Marley and from today 311. To sound very cliche' here the 50 First Dates soundtrack is the soundtrack of my life.
Tonight I watched Ashlee Simpson's show on MTV and it was an episode I could completely relate to. She and her boyfriend broke up. She wrote a song that was played a little bit in the show that describes the break up and how heart broken she is. I understand what she is going through because I have had my heart broken 3 times now. With all three heart breaks there seems to be one thing in common the guy believes he's not good enough and he's holding me back from true happiness. I don't think that love is based on whether or not someone is good enough for you it is all about how they make you feel as a person. Each guy that has broken my heart has made me a better person in different ways. The first guy opened me up to express myself as me. The second guy gave me a lot of confidence in my appearance, he made me understand that I am sexy and can have any guy I want. After those two I wasn't sure if I was ready to try again but I'm glad I did cause the third guy showed me how to live again and that its ok to be goofy, dorky me. Even though it hurt I don't regret any chances I took with them.
This is just a bit of advice I'm throwing in to anyone who reads this and I hope that it makes you feel ok when things go wrong. "Life is full of mistakes and wrong decisions but it's something that can't be avoided. Murphy's Law says it best: if there is a chance something could go wrong... it will."
Wow I can't seem to get enough of writing tonight but I'll end this so it's not too boring. Before I go I want to say that I miss and love all of my Zeta sisters and can't wait to see you all again soon.
~Zeta Love And Mine~
Jessica