**Real depressed, welcome 2 Squad's life** (It's all 4 u Dee & Joey Mack!!)
Hmm... so what's new in my life. I'm feelin' like shit lately these last few days. Part of that could be the women problems approaching, but I'm also tired & stressed & feelin' shitty. I am pretty much depressed all the time but I know how 2 have fun & try 2 hide it. But whatever... I hope things will get better. I'm having a hard time focusing & staying awake in my classes, too. I don't fall asleep but I feel like I'm gonna & I think it may be part of being depressed. I eat pretty good, workout, sleep basically a good amount, I'm busy a lot but I mean I should be able 2 stay more focused & I can't. Caffeine doesn't really have an effect on me.. so that wouldn't help. I just wanna be completely happy... what a dream, eh.
I got 31 hours this week. :o) Cuz I had no school Monday & Tuesday so I worked, & then this weekend. I need the extra $ & w\my raise it'll be a nice check. I wish I could manage that many hours every week. But I work a decent amount 4 being in college.
I had a really fun weekend. Saturday night was awesome. Ash (Jankowski) & I went 2 Hooter's 4 dinner, (haha, the girls were so annoying.) But it's too funny cuz they like open ur dipping sauce 4 u & it's just funny they totally take care of u. I don't remember them doing that when we went this summer. But... we ate, had a good chat... came 2 my house... looked @ pics, had a few Mike's lime, & I did a shot of vodka, haha, Ash called me a champ. I was talking 2 Jimmy on the phone & downed that jazz. Lol. I was feeling it a little when I left the house, we had mad fun on the way 2 Mike's house. I didn't go inside but holy damn his house looks nice! So, Mike drove & we went 2 pick up his friends then we went 2 Rum Runner's. That was only my second time being there & I had a lot of fun. Mike paid 4 us 2 get in!! I was like ahh, what a gentleman but please don't! Lol. Ash yea, but not me! Lol. He paid 4 all the girls that were w\us. Me, Ash, & his friend Amanda. Omg, Ash introduced me 2 whiskey sours which r amazzzzing. I was sooo drunk & it was fun being half trashed when I got there. Haha. I was like throwing $ @ people letting everyone buy drinks. Haha. But I bought Ash a drink & barely spent any $ cuz Mike kept buying us drinks. & I was flinging my hair in Ash's lip gloss & I was being obnoxious. Omg. Hahaha. Ash was getting mad but we had mad fun. & I was sticking my ass out hahahaha. Wow. & this random cute guy came up 2 me & started dancing & I was excited. Then Chris got there w\Melissa & Marie & Ash got mad @ me cuz... well, nevermind. :oP Lol. But Ash, u don't understand!! Haha. & I saw mad people there I knew. & we had 2 pee alll night & ran in Tim Horton's. & I had sooo much gold glitter on my chest Ash said it looked like sweat. But it was 4 a good cause. :o)))) Hahahaha. Can we say boys get jealous? Yes, we can! :o) Lol. Then we went 2 Colosso & Mike wouldn't let us drive home, haha, so he drove me & Ash had 2 go 2 work @ like 6. Like 2 hours after. Haha. Some boys were watching me & Ash dance. Ash grabbed my boobs! Haha. It was the glitter. Hahaha. Kristen looked @ Chris & was like "look @ Tara dance w\that girl!" It was good times. We need 2 do that more often. I love Ash. She's a trip.
I got my belly button pierced yesterday! :o) @ American Skinart. :o) Holly came. I was madddd nervous! It hurt!!! But only 4 a second, like it pinched but the needle hurt. But it's fine & I clean it like I'm supposed & it feels a little odd when I bend down but I got a lil green ball on it. It's cute. Omg, the girl was like "can u sit up a little, most people don't, but u have no stomach fat!! Wow!" I was like "wow, u made my day, even if u hurt me, u made my day." Haha. It's really cute though, & I'm glad I got it done. I can't wait 2 get a dangly charm, & it's gonna be cute in Florida. :o)))
I ordered some cute tanks from Forever & a t-shirt from Hollister that says "no strings attached." It's dedicated 2 a friend. :o) & the tanks r so cute, one's longer & then one had flowers. I got a track jacket from Hollister too it's green w\a rainbow heart but it's on backorder so I won't get it 4 a while.
Well, Tiff is about 2 call me & I am talking 2 Dee so I'm gonna go do math homework & lay down. School sux... it's a pain in the ass. I got a B on my first math exam though & a C on my Economic History but she's gonna curve it & said it was good cuz the class average was lower than that. I wish she would have 50 questions instead of 33. Whatever. Ok, bye, love yas. :oP
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
Time heals all wounds, and we've both moved on, but the memories & the feelings will never change. <3
I love you, and I can't wait till things fall into place.
I got 31 hours this week. :o) Cuz I had no school Monday & Tuesday so I worked, & then this weekend. I need the extra $ & w\my raise it'll be a nice check. I wish I could manage that many hours every week. But I work a decent amount 4 being in college.
I had a really fun weekend. Saturday night was awesome. Ash (Jankowski) & I went 2 Hooter's 4 dinner, (haha, the girls were so annoying.) But it's too funny cuz they like open ur dipping sauce 4 u & it's just funny they totally take care of u. I don't remember them doing that when we went this summer. But... we ate, had a good chat... came 2 my house... looked @ pics, had a few Mike's lime, & I did a shot of vodka, haha, Ash called me a champ. I was talking 2 Jimmy on the phone & downed that jazz. Lol. I was feeling it a little when I left the house, we had mad fun on the way 2 Mike's house. I didn't go inside but holy damn his house looks nice! So, Mike drove & we went 2 pick up his friends then we went 2 Rum Runner's. That was only my second time being there & I had a lot of fun. Mike paid 4 us 2 get in!! I was like ahh, what a gentleman but please don't! Lol. Ash yea, but not me! Lol. He paid 4 all the girls that were w\us. Me, Ash, & his friend Amanda. Omg, Ash introduced me 2 whiskey sours which r amazzzzing. I was sooo drunk & it was fun being half trashed when I got there. Haha. I was like throwing $ @ people letting everyone buy drinks. Haha. But I bought Ash a drink & barely spent any $ cuz Mike kept buying us drinks. & I was flinging my hair in Ash's lip gloss & I was being obnoxious. Omg. Hahaha. Ash was getting mad but we had mad fun. & I was sticking my ass out hahahaha. Wow. & this random cute guy came up 2 me & started dancing & I was excited. Then Chris got there w\Melissa & Marie & Ash got mad @ me cuz... well, nevermind. :oP Lol. But Ash, u don't understand!! Haha. & I saw mad people there I knew. & we had 2 pee alll night & ran in Tim Horton's. & I had sooo much gold glitter on my chest Ash said it looked like sweat. But it was 4 a good cause. :o)))) Hahahaha. Can we say boys get jealous? Yes, we can! :o) Lol. Then we went 2 Colosso & Mike wouldn't let us drive home, haha, so he drove me & Ash had 2 go 2 work @ like 6. Like 2 hours after. Haha. Some boys were watching me & Ash dance. Ash grabbed my boobs! Haha. It was the glitter. Hahaha. Kristen looked @ Chris & was like "look @ Tara dance w\that girl!" It was good times. We need 2 do that more often. I love Ash. She's a trip.
I got my belly button pierced yesterday! :o) @ American Skinart. :o) Holly came. I was madddd nervous! It hurt!!! But only 4 a second, like it pinched but the needle hurt. But it's fine & I clean it like I'm supposed & it feels a little odd when I bend down but I got a lil green ball on it. It's cute. Omg, the girl was like "can u sit up a little, most people don't, but u have no stomach fat!! Wow!" I was like "wow, u made my day, even if u hurt me, u made my day." Haha. It's really cute though, & I'm glad I got it done. I can't wait 2 get a dangly charm, & it's gonna be cute in Florida. :o)))
I ordered some cute tanks from Forever & a t-shirt from Hollister that says "no strings attached." It's dedicated 2 a friend. :o) & the tanks r so cute, one's longer & then one had flowers. I got a track jacket from Hollister too it's green w\a rainbow heart but it's on backorder so I won't get it 4 a while.
Well, Tiff is about 2 call me & I am talking 2 Dee so I'm gonna go do math homework & lay down. School sux... it's a pain in the ass. I got a B on my first math exam though & a C on my Economic History but she's gonna curve it & said it was good cuz the class average was lower than that. I wish she would have 50 questions instead of 33. Whatever. Ok, bye, love yas. :oP
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
Time heals all wounds, and we've both moved on, but the memories & the feelings will never change. <3
I love you, and I can't wait till things fall into place.