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[italianakk88]

YEY!!! My birthday is in 10 days!!!! YES!!! WHOOO HOOO!!! ALRIGHT!!! so yea, I am gonna be 17 in 10 days which is freaken awesome....I think I figured out that I am gonna go to the air force and they will pay forl my college... I am gonna talk to Sarge tomorrowo about that!!! I am also makel a commitment to running tomorrow!!! Definitely!!!!So yeah

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I DON'T HATE YOU!!!!!

[italianakk88]

I don't hate you, not at all...You and ur sister are my best friends and I hope that will never change but it doesn't seem like you care about me anymore...I tried my best to try to devote my time to try to please you and sister but it seems like I am not getting anything in return...I mean u know with your whole birthday and everything I really really tried to make it the best that it could be providing the circumstances and I guess it just wasn't enough...I called your dad and brenda and tried to see what they were going to do for your guys' birthday, I was gonna buy you a cake and everything but I guess that couldn't happen b/c you decided to get in trouble right before your birthday. Which really suxl and I felt bad, I know you guys did a lot for my birthday and I wanted to do as much as I could for yours eventhough I have been going through a shit load of other stuff in my life.That's all besides the point, at school when we sit at lunch(rarely) I just sit there and you guys barely even talk to me and I feel so out of place...I know that you had fun with you other friends, drinking and everything....but then again when do we spend time together....hardly ever...U always talk about sunny and jon and everyone on your live journal, and when do u mention me or write about US spending anytime together...U never do(b/c we rarely see eachother and u are always spending time with Sunny or who ever) Listen if you have enough time to spend with Sunny coming over or even talking to him, how come u can see hima nd talk to him even if your grounded...that just doesn't make any sense to me...I know I have been working a lot lately and everything but it still doesn't mean that u can't call me. I am just a littlel confused as to why I am the one who is "deserting you" and you don't even make an effort to try to talk to me...I know we have discussed this earlier....and by the way the whole stabbing in the back thing doesn't just refer to you....If you knew what was going on right now, my grandma has been the one mostly doing that...I am nopt trying to be a bitch and I am not trying to start a fight with you it's just that I feel on a totally different world than what you are on and I for some odd reason I thought "I" am your best friend but aren't friends supposed to talk to you and at least ask you know "how's your life doing?" or "what's up?" I really do care a lot about u and ur sister and I am your best friend who will always be there for you no matter what you may think, I am the one that you should spend time with and talk to, but it seems like I am that lonely little 2nd grader stuck in the corner of the room neither talked to nor acknowledged....I hope you realize how much I love you and care about the both of you, but it feels like you really don't care or understand...
I love you both, just remember that I AM your best friend(hopefully u think the same)