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I'm going off birthcontrol. I hate it, i can never get horny anymore. And its really making me mad. And i dont like the way it makes me feel. And i dont like how the fact i work out every day mon-fri 3 hours a day and i still cant loose weight. AND I'M WATCHING WAT I EAT!!!! I really hate my body. I used to b really confident and i look at other girls and i'm like i wish i had enough balls to starve myself like i used to. But then i realize i wasnt happy at all wen i did that, so not worht going down that road again. And i just find myself not even being that hungry nemore, and i always forget to eat dinner bcuz by the time i get home i'm too fucking tired. I just want to b the weight i was freshmen year and not worry about a thing.
And like i'm NOT HORNY at ALL and most ppl know i'm the biggest nympho u will ever meet and i went from masterbating all the time to never being able to keep it going. Or i can last forever with matty but now i can barely get in the mood, and its putting such a damper on us cuz he tihnks its him. So i've decided tomorrow i'm going to call my doctor and discuss this with her. And if there is no other birth control that will work the way i want it to, then i'm just gunna stop completely. Fuck this was supposed to make sex easier, its just made it harder, first it was makin sure i didnt get pregnant then next it was like alright abby u need to fucking keep it up damnit.
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I have homework to... i dnt wanna do it. It blows. Fuck u math, latin, history, ap, and english. Damnit i need a weekend.
I think i'm going to the MHS football game tomorrow.. who wants to meet up with me? Nadine? Marie? Cell me bitchhessss
And like i'm NOT HORNY at ALL and most ppl know i'm the biggest nympho u will ever meet and i went from masterbating all the time to never being able to keep it going. Or i can last forever with matty but now i can barely get in the mood, and its putting such a damper on us cuz he tihnks its him. So i've decided tomorrow i'm going to call my doctor and discuss this with her. And if there is no other birth control that will work the way i want it to, then i'm just gunna stop completely. Fuck this was supposed to make sex easier, its just made it harder, first it was makin sure i didnt get pregnant then next it was like alright abby u need to fucking keep it up damnit.
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I have homework to... i dnt wanna do it. It blows. Fuck u math, latin, history, ap, and english. Damnit i need a weekend.
I think i'm going to the MHS football game tomorrow.. who wants to meet up with me? Nadine? Marie? Cell me bitchhessss