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So a lot has happened this week:
I found out I am a table leader for antioch: I freak out, but become excited
I found out that I can't be a counselor: I freak/flip out, break down, bawl for a few hours/days etc.
I found out I am giving a talk at Antioch: I again freak out.
I am past the fact that I am a table leader. That will be fun. I am still nervous though
I can't get past the fact that I won't be at camp this summer. I was basing everything around that job and I really have yet to come to terms with the idea that for the first time in 6 summers, I won't be there. I won't spend all summer with ben and nate and brittani. I won't get to know all those amazing counselors. There are positives to not going, but at the present time, I can think of none.
I am giving I talk. A talk that is at least 20 mins long. About self image. I can do it. I just want it to be touching, for it to mean something to the candidates. I have ideas, I just don't know what to do with them.
And it just goes on.
I found out I am a table leader for antioch: I freak out, but become excited
I found out that I can't be a counselor: I freak/flip out, break down, bawl for a few hours/days etc.
I found out I am giving a talk at Antioch: I again freak out.
I am past the fact that I am a table leader. That will be fun. I am still nervous though
I can't get past the fact that I won't be at camp this summer. I was basing everything around that job and I really have yet to come to terms with the idea that for the first time in 6 summers, I won't be there. I won't spend all summer with ben and nate and brittani. I won't get to know all those amazing counselors. There are positives to not going, but at the present time, I can think of none.
I am giving I talk. A talk that is at least 20 mins long. About self image. I can do it. I just want it to be touching, for it to mean something to the candidates. I have ideas, I just don't know what to do with them.
And it just goes on.