I hear in my mind, all of this music; and it breaks my heart.
One of the worst side effects of insomnia is this: I am loved. I have friends, an amazing boyfriend whom I am terrifyingly in love with, a mother and father a phone call away. But here, at four in the morning, I feel so overwhelmingly lonely. Everyone is asleep, and even if they're not, neither of us will call the other for fear that they are, in fact, asleep.
On the other hand, I like being by myself sometimes, doing all my selfish shit like playing games only I like and cooking food for one(putting sweet relish in the tuna salad, for instance). Sometimes I worry that I'm too selfish to be in a relationship, but here I am in one for a year and a half, so I guess not.
It's best that I stop typing.
On the other hand, I like being by myself sometimes, doing all my selfish shit like playing games only I like and cooking food for one(putting sweet relish in the tuna salad, for instance). Sometimes I worry that I'm too selfish to be in a relationship, but here I am in one for a year and a half, so I guess not.
It's best that I stop typing.