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i think im wierd...wrestling started...its not bad, i swear im the only guy on the team that you will fight with thinkin, "this skinny guy is going down so quick" and when we start im the only guy on the team that will smile at you. no one seems to beleive i got second in leage and team mvp with second highest winning percentage on the entire team. but i hope theyl see. hecka guys like challenge me, then get pissed off when i win...im always the "queer, vegetarian, rocker guy that sucks and doesnt deserve a seconf glance" i hate 80 percent of the teammates...but they make me laugh when they work out in the mirrored rooms and watch themsleves like "damn, orgasmic!!" lol. i hate mirrors, i cannot stand to see myself. bleh w/e...seems like all the good stuff is dying. everyday that passes i lose my new found optimism. iv almsot finished the drawing i started a couple days ago. i know its almost done cuz im starting to hate it. i know its done when i abhor my creation, writing, drawings, anything..when i hate it, its done. fuck bush i hate him. but i am upset with kerry for conceding. there was still hope and you should never EVER quit. not as long as there is hope...im still hoping someone will decide to read the latest and most important letter i have ever written. but...well i think im done and this entry is absolutely stupid and pointless but i guess its my rant and according to the learning perspective all actions are comitted in order to advance oneself in anything. i think there are exceptions but i dont think i have the anything enough to defy whats set in stone..."my pessimistic lines", grow longer everyday