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Adderall is God's gift to college students
The only problem now is that I can't go to sleep now that I'm done studying and I don't want to pull my usual of getting high to go to bed because I'm afraid I'll forget all the shit I just learned.
Life is stressful.
I have way more responsibilities than I would have expected to have at 19.
And definitely wayy more bills than expected.
I'm pulling through though and thats all that counts.
School is going ok.
Volunteering at Woodrow Wilson Middle School.
I'm sure I'm not really making a difference in these kids life but I can pretend I am to make myself feel better about my existence.
I really love my house
And I love living with guys much more than girls
I got annoyed by somethings at first but they are improving
they clean the kitchen now
and take out the trash
and we cook dinner together some nights
and relax and talk and get high
and since their roommate they treat me like a person, not a piece of ass
plus all the girl are jealous that I live with the president of Pi Kapp and most of the Pi Kapps are real hotties
Work is work.
No matter what its going to suck while in college.
Barnacles just seems to be the same every weekend.
I shot girl on Friday nights
I work Tiki Bar on Saturday nights
Serve football Sunday days
and serve on Monday nights till close.
The advantage to working there is I work only the shifts I want and they are the most profitable for me.
And I suppose if I didn't work there I would never see my family bc Lord knows I have no other desire to be in the shit hole that is Brandon.
Im ready to make a difference.
To have my degree and to help people.
I want to get my masters and possibly my doctorate.
And I want to be able to be happy no matter what.
Even if I do social work and dont make shit.
As long as Im changing the world...or at least one person's world.
Me and Ryan breaking up is bittersweet.
Now that we have been done for so long I realize how much more fun I am
How boring he made me
And how he was dragging me down
But then I think maybe I was a better person when I was with him
Maybe I wasn't boring but I had my head on straight
That he wasn't dragging me down but keeping me afloat
I really loved him
and I know he loved me
and I will always love him even through it all
We have finally reconciled and are on good terms
I am really over him though
He will go down in my life as my first love
and I know I did it right
I fell as hard as possible and hurt as bad as possible
and now I can take on anything
Hello life
Hello world
Hello challenges
Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
I'm ready to be strong
The only problem now is that I can't go to sleep now that I'm done studying and I don't want to pull my usual of getting high to go to bed because I'm afraid I'll forget all the shit I just learned.
Life is stressful.
I have way more responsibilities than I would have expected to have at 19.
And definitely wayy more bills than expected.
I'm pulling through though and thats all that counts.
School is going ok.
Volunteering at Woodrow Wilson Middle School.
I'm sure I'm not really making a difference in these kids life but I can pretend I am to make myself feel better about my existence.
I really love my house
And I love living with guys much more than girls
I got annoyed by somethings at first but they are improving
they clean the kitchen now
and take out the trash
and we cook dinner together some nights
and relax and talk and get high
and since their roommate they treat me like a person, not a piece of ass
plus all the girl are jealous that I live with the president of Pi Kapp and most of the Pi Kapps are real hotties
Work is work.
No matter what its going to suck while in college.
Barnacles just seems to be the same every weekend.
I shot girl on Friday nights
I work Tiki Bar on Saturday nights
Serve football Sunday days
and serve on Monday nights till close.
The advantage to working there is I work only the shifts I want and they are the most profitable for me.
And I suppose if I didn't work there I would never see my family bc Lord knows I have no other desire to be in the shit hole that is Brandon.
Im ready to make a difference.
To have my degree and to help people.
I want to get my masters and possibly my doctorate.
And I want to be able to be happy no matter what.
Even if I do social work and dont make shit.
As long as Im changing the world...or at least one person's world.
Me and Ryan breaking up is bittersweet.
Now that we have been done for so long I realize how much more fun I am
How boring he made me
And how he was dragging me down
But then I think maybe I was a better person when I was with him
Maybe I wasn't boring but I had my head on straight
That he wasn't dragging me down but keeping me afloat
I really loved him
and I know he loved me
and I will always love him even through it all
We have finally reconciled and are on good terms
I am really over him though
He will go down in my life as my first love
and I know I did it right
I fell as hard as possible and hurt as bad as possible
and now I can take on anything
Hello life
Hello world
Hello challenges
Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
I'm ready to be strong