Im so sick of being sick
Im so sick of bein sick and feeling like this. Really I am.
It's all due to one little thing. I cant believe one little thing could have such a massive effect on my for such a long time; tierdness, lack of energy, constant niggeling pain, depression...
After years and years of seeing a million stupid doctors and specialists that charge a fortune, taking millions of different tablets that have no effect on me, being misdiagnosed a million different times by dr's who care more about money then their patients, I FINALLY saw a good dr who was able to give me medication that has a positive effecvct on me, diagnosed me properlly and referred me to a surgon.
I have to wait until Tuesday to see him and see what he says, but there's a very real chance that I will have to have an opperation which would fix this once and forall. It's pretty hard to understand how much of an effect this has on my life. It's massive, all the worrying, pain, tieredness..as I mentioned before. The thought of being well and being normal for the first time in my life in 6 years is almost incomprehensable. I've forgotten what it feels like to feel normal, Im just so use to this *sigh*
If I have to have an opperation to fix this up once and forall, I will, even though I'm terrafied of the thought of it and it brings tears to my eyes just at the idea...the pain afterwards wont be good, and having the opperation could have a big effect on my body for the rest of my life...but I must talk to the surgeon and see if it will or not.
IM SO SICK OF BEING SICK! It means I cant work effectivly, and no it's not that I just dont want to. I DO! I hate sitting at home not working or studying...geez I've never really sat and realised what a huge impact this has on my life. The lack of energy I feel makes it hard to move around at times, and at other times hard to walk.
*sigh* just so sick of this shit.
I pray that once and forall it might be fixed up, thanks to a dr who cares about his patients.
TO THOSE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND ME
This explains a lot. It's not that I'm lazy, not that Im always depressed, not that I dont care, its because I'm sick and it effects my immune system. I just dont like talking about it. Also yes I have done some things I'm not proud of and for this I apologise. You dont understand what my life is like unless you life it for yourself, and I admit I havent made things easy to understand me because I hide my feelings so much, but thats just me. If you have anything you wish to say to me or ask me, SAY IT. Running your mouth off saying things that are untrue or makeing judgements based on onesided affairs isnt cool, but if thats what u wish to do, good luck to you and have a happy life.
It's all due to one little thing. I cant believe one little thing could have such a massive effect on my for such a long time; tierdness, lack of energy, constant niggeling pain, depression...
After years and years of seeing a million stupid doctors and specialists that charge a fortune, taking millions of different tablets that have no effect on me, being misdiagnosed a million different times by dr's who care more about money then their patients, I FINALLY saw a good dr who was able to give me medication that has a positive effecvct on me, diagnosed me properlly and referred me to a surgon.
I have to wait until Tuesday to see him and see what he says, but there's a very real chance that I will have to have an opperation which would fix this once and forall. It's pretty hard to understand how much of an effect this has on my life. It's massive, all the worrying, pain, tieredness..as I mentioned before. The thought of being well and being normal for the first time in my life in 6 years is almost incomprehensable. I've forgotten what it feels like to feel normal, Im just so use to this *sigh*
If I have to have an opperation to fix this up once and forall, I will, even though I'm terrafied of the thought of it and it brings tears to my eyes just at the idea...the pain afterwards wont be good, and having the opperation could have a big effect on my body for the rest of my life...but I must talk to the surgeon and see if it will or not.
IM SO SICK OF BEING SICK! It means I cant work effectivly, and no it's not that I just dont want to. I DO! I hate sitting at home not working or studying...geez I've never really sat and realised what a huge impact this has on my life. The lack of energy I feel makes it hard to move around at times, and at other times hard to walk.
*sigh* just so sick of this shit.
I pray that once and forall it might be fixed up, thanks to a dr who cares about his patients.
TO THOSE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND ME
This explains a lot. It's not that I'm lazy, not that Im always depressed, not that I dont care, its because I'm sick and it effects my immune system. I just dont like talking about it. Also yes I have done some things I'm not proud of and for this I apologise. You dont understand what my life is like unless you life it for yourself, and I admit I havent made things easy to understand me because I hide my feelings so much, but thats just me. If you have anything you wish to say to me or ask me, SAY IT. Running your mouth off saying things that are untrue or makeing judgements based on onesided affairs isnt cool, but if thats what u wish to do, good luck to you and have a happy life.