May 28, 2005 15:46
Well shit.
Life does change a lot.
I wish that I conveyed my feelings more to the people I actually care about. It's weird that the people I care about the most probably have no idea.
I'm just really bad at small talk. I only know how to make deep connections with someone, otherwise I can't waste my time. I don't know if that's harsh or not.
I would imagine most people see me as a nonchalant flake, but I CARE about my family way too much. My family being everyone I love. I think I have pretty bad social skills and may be too reserved.
And I'm not sure if that's a negative thing or not.
I'm going through a strange random phase. When my circle of love is being dismantled I tend to self-reflect.
ALl I know is I want to be more involved in my family's lives without being biased and/or too opinionated. I have no idea when anyone needs me, even though I feel I'ma deeply intuitive being.
maybe I'm just trippin.
"we are the musicmakers...we are the dreamers of the dreams." -**willy wonka**