"it's getting colder and we're getting distant"

[istilldream]

i have this horrible feeling in my stomach. i need for this summer to be over, to get out of work. i miss school. i love hen hud and can't bear the finite time i have left. but i can't deal with the thought of having my closest friends leave for another year. steve was talking about going out to california for college, and i'm scared as hell that this year is all we have left.

my dad talks about his friends from high school every once in a while like they are so remote. he never talks to his childhood friends. i know that's inevitable, but it's so unreal.

i'm just majorly bummed.