Tell me I'm a bird
So many things I could say at this point..so many thoughts have crossed through my mind, and I see that cycle coming up to meet the beginning again. Why are we so doomed to repeat history. I wish blinding myself with ignorance were that easy to achieve. Anyway, today was nice. Very relaxing. Played video games all night and smoked with someone whom I, at some point, wanted nothing to do with. She's grown in status since then, however. I've been able to see a side of her I had never seen before, she's cool peeps. Go Lauren. Im enjoying the company of different friends these days, It's been very exciting to be able to see Stefanie a little bit more often lately, she's one I've always liked having around. New people in my life are always fun. The discovery of someone completely new who was completely straight that i could feel this comfortable with is kind of refreshing. Atleast I don't completely hate men yet. lol. Mind you, this whole entry is my attempt to focus myself on the positive, for my life is rich with it. However, I can't help but feel, still, like something is missing...and I recently had a conversation that I can't stop from thinking about...why do I torture myself? It's futile...and I'm tired...I could sleep for a week if you allowed me to