Mar 24, 2004 19:01
I wish I could adress one specific person. Y'know, tell the world who she is. Tell everyone "Hey! I'm crazy about this girl, and she's always on my mind!"
But I can't. It just won't work like that.
But I can hope that you're reading this. I can hope that you know I'm sorry, and...well, maybe this will help.
Ever since I met this girl, I've been happy. I was miserable before her But I met her, and everything was different! Even if she wasn't mine, and even if that would never happen...I stayed. I was so amazed by how amazing she was, it didn't matter that it was hopeless. All that mattered was that I cared so much about her.
I guess all we are is "friends." I guess that's all we'll ever be - I'm a friend that drags her down, she's my friend who makes me feel like I'm the king of the world. It may look funny when you write it out like that, but she's incredible. I hope she's reading this...
Get any rumors out of your head. For all of you that have come up to me, asked me if I was with so-and-so, or had a thing with what's-her-face...forget it. You'll never know who this girl is. Because I can't tell you. And after seeing all this, I think "Hell, why don't I just give up? Move on?"
Look...if you're reading this - every up and down we have, even though you may not feel like it, is worth it to me. Every bump in the road is another excuse for me to prove that I really do care about you. So forgive me when I worry, or excuse me when I stress....you may not know it, but you're beautiful, and you're everything, and you deserve more than me.