im holding on by letting go of you
i hate directing the drama 1/musical theatre class. they are a pain in my ass. but i love directing kara and daniel in d4/d3. blocking today was delish and i love the relationship that gerdy and i have now. haha its actually really hilarious. but oh my god, how awkward was our situation? im so glad kara large was there to experience that with me, b/c no one else could have felt how crazy it is. i dont know but i was dying. ughhh.
but yeah, rehearsals were ok. they werent horrible or bad, but they were great either. and i can barely talk. so this weekend will consist of me resting so i can be all better by next week.
i was up in the mornings and feel like dog poo on the bottom of your shoe. but then i feel better, like i dont feel sick but my voice hurts. and then at the end of the day im completely wornout and im feeling like shit again. i cant really breathe all too well right now and when i do i have this coughing fit. its really pleasant actually. blehhhh. i just want to be alllllllll better already.
i think im going to do some school work this weekend.
but what i really want to do is sleep for forever.
i hate the way i think sometimes. its always the same.
Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again
Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away
Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you