this was meant to be a comment but exceeded the char. limit by 4000. to josh!
you have the freedom of time dude. you get home by 6. if you're in bed by 10 or 11 you have 8 hours to sleep.
minus sitting down to eat/make dinner (which at a maximum for you is like an hour) so, worse case scenario 3 hours.
an hour for karate right? plus commute plus shower(i hope you would) is like 2 hours. it fits.
not energetic enough for karate? you have a bowflex that luciano uses to rest his paint buckets on. warm up plus workout plus cardio. 1 hour. the more you work out the more energy you'll find you have. (same goes with food, the healthier you eat the more efficient your body will work, doesn't work well if it constantly thinks its sick) trust me it'll be worth it, and it may help with your thyroid problem. yes this means vegetables. i know you don't like fruit but i've seen you eat a veggie!! remember flavor isn't what food is about! its about nutrition. it's about what satisfies the needs of your whole body, not satisfying your tongue only.
books can be read on weekends, lunch breaks, slow times at work, waiting to get a haircut, just have it with you all the time even if you think there is a chance to read it at least you'll have it. you know else helps with finishing your library? STOP BUYING BOOKS!! i've doubled my library in the last year and haven't read anything of the first half. so i guess i should take my own advice on that one.
poker night and board game night are something you do with friends outside of the house. not everyone has to come to yours. this means you're gonna have to make some new friends. josh, i know you're not a social butterfly as some of us are. in fact i can't think of a new friend you've made since you left UCF. that... was a long time ago. harsh reality huh?
maybe you'll find a less whinier gf in the process. like... a nikki 2.0. but a lot of women are that way, don't push you're luck cuz you'll be lucky to find a nikki 1.0.0.1. (that was a little too 21st century i think. i can't believe i went there.)
loosen up and give things a shot. you might find that you enjoy something that you didn't think you would. i'm not saying smoke and drink and do drugs like we all did. but those were things we all said we wouldn't do and said "i'll never know if i don't do it." and because we took a risk and learned something we took more risks and more and more and next thing you know. things are easier because we're not afraid to try. but thank god we got sensible about the drugs though.
and then you'll find that you have so many more things to talk about with others.
your life is there, the life you want is staring you in the face. the only thing you lack is movement. thats all you bro! if you don't take the shot, if you don't walk the first step towards the life you want. you will never have that life. never. do you want to sit and wait for your life to start? you're already living! so LIVE! who's life are you living if you're not living the life you want?
live to be joshua benjamin perry! get up! and don't let yourself stop! there will be bumps and misses and dead ends and crashes and rear ends(sometimes good rear ends but most are bad) and mythilogical creatures and maybe a ninja chop on the way.
i'm gonna sound religious for a moment. and a little harsh.
you're 21. overweight, a little lazy, and a little pathetic.
but you wouldn't be if you atleast looked like you were trying to do SOMETHING. just ANYTHING. anything but whatever it is you actually try to make seem like you're doing.
you don't need to spend 300$ to make your tv thinner. you could've fed a homeless man for a year with that. maybe longer. maybe he really likes ramen noodles. BUT NO! YOU JUST WANT TO SPEND MONEY BECAUSE IT FEELS GOOD TO SPEND MONEY BECAUSE IT FILLS IN YOUR SOUL! I KNOW BECAUSE I FEEL THE SAME WAY BUT I'VE LEARNED TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I AM POOR AND SHOULD NOT SPEND OTHER PEOPLE'S MONEY.
you don't need to find fancy deals on amazon, though they are amazing sometimes and i wish i could afford them, but getting them texted to your phone? NEED I REMIND YOU, YOU JUST WANT TO SPEND MONEY!! THATS WHAT THAT IS. THERE IS NO OTHER EXCUSE. PERIOD. STOP DENYING IT. NO. WE END ON THAT STATEMENT. YOU MUST ACCEPT THAT AS FACT AND FACT ALONE. NO ONE IS TRYING TO LIE TO YOU HERE!
you are 21 need i remind you. STOP SAVING UP FOR A GODDAMN HOUSE AND GET A DAMNED APARTMENT LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE DO!! GET OUT OF YOUR MOTHERS HOUSE BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW YOU CAN AFFORD TO AND WE KNOW IT WILL BE GOOD FOR YOU!!!!! IT'S NOT WASTED MONEY TO RENT!! IT'S SATISFYING ENOUGH TO KNOW YOU'RE MAKING IT ON YOUR OWN!!!! SAVE UP FOR A HOUSE WHEN YOU NEED TO RAISE A FAMILY!!! CUZ WHEN YOU'RE ON YOUR DEATHBED CLUTCHING A DEED TO A HOME INSTEAD OF YOUR SON/DAUGHTER'S HAND IT'S A LONELY WORLD ALL OF A SUDDEN AND YOU'D TRADE THE HOUSE FOR A HOMELESS MAN!!!!! HAVEN'T YOU SEEN SCROOGE!?!?!?! IT'S SUPPOSED TO TEACH YOU A LESSON!!! AND HOW LONG ARE YOU SERIOUSLY PLANNING ON SAVING MONEY FOR!? IT WOULD TAKE YOU 3 YEARS TO COLLECT A DECENT DOWN PAYMENT ANYWAY!!! YOU GONNA LIVE AT HOME TIL YOU'RE 24!? IT'LL BE 20 YEARS FOR PEOPLE LIKE ME!!! BUT I'M NOT COMPLAINING!!! I LIKE APARTMENTS!!!! I THINK THEY'RE CUTE!!! CUZ YOU CAN BREAK SHIT!! AND THEN THE LANDLORD HAS TO DEAL WITH IT!!! YOU THINK HE LIKES OWNING THAT APARTMENT!? I DOUBT IT!!! PROBABLY REGRETS THE DAY HE SHOOK THE HAND OF THE REALTOR THAT SOLD IT TO HIM!!!
ANYW-- anyway, back on topic kinda had a little too much fun in that last paragraph.
you can't only be satisfied by physical things, cuz you can't take them with you when you die.
only physical things that make you happy can be handed on a silver platter.
the real things worth value you have to get yourself.
they aren't even handed to you. they dangle in your face until you're almost dead and maybe, just maybe you did all the right things, got all the right connections and all the right help, education, experiences that made you happy that you lived the one life you have.
end religious and emotional stuff here. but take it seriously! maybe one day you'll actually want that.
you know what would be a good way for you to get off your butt and do the things you want?
complete technological rehabilitation. no internet. no game systems. no cable/satellite. no credit cards. no worrying about bank balances. cuz trust me, if you leave them alone, nothing happens to them. take out some cash, and then you'll know how much you have. (please don't take out some god awful amount like 300$ a week. no one needs that much. i survived on less than that per month. and you will be bored.
REALLY BORED. for a while. but then you find shit to do. and more shit. and next thing you know you start working on shit. and you're busy. and not bored. and wtf is lost anyway? i got lost in the 3rd season and that shit never found anything. i think i'm the one traveling through time sometimes. and wtf is up with heroes? complete x-men ripoff. i'm just waiting for the watcher and phoenix to show up. but yeah. technology today(especially the mass of tech in your room alone) is for entertainment purposes. as in "this will keep my brain occupied until i go to bed. and go back to work tomorrow and continue this process so nothing in my life gets done."
of course i can't really push you to make these decision. i could only hope that the time i took to try and help you didn't go to waste. maybe no all of it made sense seeing as i've been up all night, and my grammar and essay writing abilities are horrible anyway and always have been. i seem to always lose track of what i meant to say in a paragraph and just seem to ramble as if i was talking out loud like a normally do.
^i just reread that paragraph and my god it is apparent i'm a disabled writer.
anyway attempt 2. i can't really push you to make these decisions because it all really comes down to you. do you want to be josh today? or put it off and be josh tomorrow? cuz i mean you can only say it so many times before you don't have a tomorrow. there is a time limit. no ones immortal.
GET OFF YOUR ASS!
miss you dude.
you missed a killer ass party last night! you should've been there! apples to apples drunk AND high!? man forget it! i am the logical arguing master(as in i can bullshit the best) of that game! i can convince anyone that penguins are lacy only on the soul fact that they can't disprove they are lacy because they've never felt one. i mean. have YOU? cuz i haven't either and i convinced a girl through a bunch of bullshit that i was correct and she couldn't disprove me. penguins was chosen over silk underwear.
i know. master? conceited? yes to both. but only when it comes to apples to apples.
minus sitting down to eat/make dinner (which at a maximum for you is like an hour) so, worse case scenario 3 hours.
an hour for karate right? plus commute plus shower(i hope you would) is like 2 hours. it fits.
not energetic enough for karate? you have a bowflex that luciano uses to rest his paint buckets on. warm up plus workout plus cardio. 1 hour. the more you work out the more energy you'll find you have. (same goes with food, the healthier you eat the more efficient your body will work, doesn't work well if it constantly thinks its sick) trust me it'll be worth it, and it may help with your thyroid problem. yes this means vegetables. i know you don't like fruit but i've seen you eat a veggie!! remember flavor isn't what food is about! its about nutrition. it's about what satisfies the needs of your whole body, not satisfying your tongue only.
books can be read on weekends, lunch breaks, slow times at work, waiting to get a haircut, just have it with you all the time even if you think there is a chance to read it at least you'll have it. you know else helps with finishing your library? STOP BUYING BOOKS!! i've doubled my library in the last year and haven't read anything of the first half. so i guess i should take my own advice on that one.
poker night and board game night are something you do with friends outside of the house. not everyone has to come to yours. this means you're gonna have to make some new friends. josh, i know you're not a social butterfly as some of us are. in fact i can't think of a new friend you've made since you left UCF. that... was a long time ago. harsh reality huh?
maybe you'll find a less whinier gf in the process. like... a nikki 2.0. but a lot of women are that way, don't push you're luck cuz you'll be lucky to find a nikki 1.0.0.1. (that was a little too 21st century i think. i can't believe i went there.)
loosen up and give things a shot. you might find that you enjoy something that you didn't think you would. i'm not saying smoke and drink and do drugs like we all did. but those were things we all said we wouldn't do and said "i'll never know if i don't do it." and because we took a risk and learned something we took more risks and more and more and next thing you know. things are easier because we're not afraid to try. but thank god we got sensible about the drugs though.
and then you'll find that you have so many more things to talk about with others.
your life is there, the life you want is staring you in the face. the only thing you lack is movement. thats all you bro! if you don't take the shot, if you don't walk the first step towards the life you want. you will never have that life. never. do you want to sit and wait for your life to start? you're already living! so LIVE! who's life are you living if you're not living the life you want?
live to be joshua benjamin perry! get up! and don't let yourself stop! there will be bumps and misses and dead ends and crashes and rear ends(sometimes good rear ends but most are bad) and mythilogical creatures and maybe a ninja chop on the way.
i'm gonna sound religious for a moment. and a little harsh.
you're 21. overweight, a little lazy, and a little pathetic.
but you wouldn't be if you atleast looked like you were trying to do SOMETHING. just ANYTHING. anything but whatever it is you actually try to make seem like you're doing.
you don't need to spend 300$ to make your tv thinner. you could've fed a homeless man for a year with that. maybe longer. maybe he really likes ramen noodles. BUT NO! YOU JUST WANT TO SPEND MONEY BECAUSE IT FEELS GOOD TO SPEND MONEY BECAUSE IT FILLS IN YOUR SOUL! I KNOW BECAUSE I FEEL THE SAME WAY BUT I'VE LEARNED TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I AM POOR AND SHOULD NOT SPEND OTHER PEOPLE'S MONEY.
you don't need to find fancy deals on amazon, though they are amazing sometimes and i wish i could afford them, but getting them texted to your phone? NEED I REMIND YOU, YOU JUST WANT TO SPEND MONEY!! THATS WHAT THAT IS. THERE IS NO OTHER EXCUSE. PERIOD. STOP DENYING IT. NO. WE END ON THAT STATEMENT. YOU MUST ACCEPT THAT AS FACT AND FACT ALONE. NO ONE IS TRYING TO LIE TO YOU HERE!
you are 21 need i remind you. STOP SAVING UP FOR A GODDAMN HOUSE AND GET A DAMNED APARTMENT LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE DO!! GET OUT OF YOUR MOTHERS HOUSE BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW YOU CAN AFFORD TO AND WE KNOW IT WILL BE GOOD FOR YOU!!!!! IT'S NOT WASTED MONEY TO RENT!! IT'S SATISFYING ENOUGH TO KNOW YOU'RE MAKING IT ON YOUR OWN!!!! SAVE UP FOR A HOUSE WHEN YOU NEED TO RAISE A FAMILY!!! CUZ WHEN YOU'RE ON YOUR DEATHBED CLUTCHING A DEED TO A HOME INSTEAD OF YOUR SON/DAUGHTER'S HAND IT'S A LONELY WORLD ALL OF A SUDDEN AND YOU'D TRADE THE HOUSE FOR A HOMELESS MAN!!!!! HAVEN'T YOU SEEN SCROOGE!?!?!?! IT'S SUPPOSED TO TEACH YOU A LESSON!!! AND HOW LONG ARE YOU SERIOUSLY PLANNING ON SAVING MONEY FOR!? IT WOULD TAKE YOU 3 YEARS TO COLLECT A DECENT DOWN PAYMENT ANYWAY!!! YOU GONNA LIVE AT HOME TIL YOU'RE 24!? IT'LL BE 20 YEARS FOR PEOPLE LIKE ME!!! BUT I'M NOT COMPLAINING!!! I LIKE APARTMENTS!!!! I THINK THEY'RE CUTE!!! CUZ YOU CAN BREAK SHIT!! AND THEN THE LANDLORD HAS TO DEAL WITH IT!!! YOU THINK HE LIKES OWNING THAT APARTMENT!? I DOUBT IT!!! PROBABLY REGRETS THE DAY HE SHOOK THE HAND OF THE REALTOR THAT SOLD IT TO HIM!!!
ANYW-- anyway, back on topic kinda had a little too much fun in that last paragraph.
you can't only be satisfied by physical things, cuz you can't take them with you when you die.
only physical things that make you happy can be handed on a silver platter.
the real things worth value you have to get yourself.
they aren't even handed to you. they dangle in your face until you're almost dead and maybe, just maybe you did all the right things, got all the right connections and all the right help, education, experiences that made you happy that you lived the one life you have.
end religious and emotional stuff here. but take it seriously! maybe one day you'll actually want that.
you know what would be a good way for you to get off your butt and do the things you want?
complete technological rehabilitation. no internet. no game systems. no cable/satellite. no credit cards. no worrying about bank balances. cuz trust me, if you leave them alone, nothing happens to them. take out some cash, and then you'll know how much you have. (please don't take out some god awful amount like 300$ a week. no one needs that much. i survived on less than that per month. and you will be bored.
REALLY BORED. for a while. but then you find shit to do. and more shit. and next thing you know you start working on shit. and you're busy. and not bored. and wtf is lost anyway? i got lost in the 3rd season and that shit never found anything. i think i'm the one traveling through time sometimes. and wtf is up with heroes? complete x-men ripoff. i'm just waiting for the watcher and phoenix to show up. but yeah. technology today(especially the mass of tech in your room alone) is for entertainment purposes. as in "this will keep my brain occupied until i go to bed. and go back to work tomorrow and continue this process so nothing in my life gets done."
of course i can't really push you to make these decision. i could only hope that the time i took to try and help you didn't go to waste. maybe no all of it made sense seeing as i've been up all night, and my grammar and essay writing abilities are horrible anyway and always have been. i seem to always lose track of what i meant to say in a paragraph and just seem to ramble as if i was talking out loud like a normally do.
^i just reread that paragraph and my god it is apparent i'm a disabled writer.
anyway attempt 2. i can't really push you to make these decisions because it all really comes down to you. do you want to be josh today? or put it off and be josh tomorrow? cuz i mean you can only say it so many times before you don't have a tomorrow. there is a time limit. no ones immortal.
GET OFF YOUR ASS!
miss you dude.
you missed a killer ass party last night! you should've been there! apples to apples drunk AND high!? man forget it! i am the logical arguing master(as in i can bullshit the best) of that game! i can convince anyone that penguins are lacy only on the soul fact that they can't disprove they are lacy because they've never felt one. i mean. have YOU? cuz i haven't either and i convinced a girl through a bunch of bullshit that i was correct and she couldn't disprove me. penguins was chosen over silk underwear.
i know. master? conceited? yes to both. but only when it comes to apples to apples.